Kevinslove Posted July 20, 2021 Report Share Posted July 20, 2021 As I sit here on my porch going through old posts and songs I have posted just brings back so much sadness, it's so hard to believe it's been 5 years since my life forever changed that my tomorrow changed, even though I have come so far and there are days I don't even think about loss days like today just totally bring it all back, the emptiness consumes me, though I know I will make it through as I always do I just feel like today is a total backwards day, I see the paramedics telling me I am sorry mam he is gone, I can see him sitting on the couch looking at me the morning of his passing but I said nothing because I was so mad at him for using the night before, I can see him running around with my grandkids, I feel so much regret today, so much that I do now that I should have done when he was alive, even the new love I have found will never fill this void , I come on here to share with people so they can maybe see it gets alittle less painful with time and yet it sometimes just pulls me back to day one anyways know this is long am sorry just needed to free my mind today, hugs to all in this journey we never wanted 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted July 21, 2021 Report Share Posted July 21, 2021 Isn't it amazing how time passes and we get used to this but it never fails to assail us all the same? It's hard for me to believe it's been 16 years...and I couldn't see how I could do a week without him! I'm glad you have someone in your life, it gets tiring being alone, always alone...yet I know it doesn't alleviate the missing him, it's never the same nor will it be, instead you create something new. (((hugs))) my friend! 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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