karen033150 Posted June 20, 2008 Report Share Posted June 20, 2008 I lost my dear mom on 5/28/08. I am 58; but lived with her all but 3 years of my life. I was a caregiver for my dad for five years. He is gone 11 years now. Mom became quite ill during the same time; and I cared for them both. I left my job and was caregiver for mom for 15 years. The past couple of years it was practically every minute of every day that she needed me. I loved every moment, and was privileged to have that gift. I would do it until the day I die if she could still be with me. She used to say she never wanted to leave me. She suffered so the past couple of years; and I know she did it for me. She was the love of my life, and I feel I can't do it. When she was dying she asked me if I would go with her. For hours she repeated that she loved me. I long to touch her and hug her for long time. I wander from room to room. I have two brothers who tell me to live my life now and go meet someone. Now I feel that when my mom's estate is settled and my things are in order that I don't care what happens to me. I can't face another morning, afternoon or night. I tried so hard to prepare. I knew this would be painful; but didn't have a clue. I was so strong and could accomplish anything for so long. Now I feel like a small child who cannot make a decision. I will keep reading posts on this site. Please pray for me, as I will for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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