LindaKoz Posted November 23, 2009 Report Share Posted November 23, 2009 Well today marks the two month date. I can't believe it has been this long since I have seen Brian's face and smile, felt his arms around me or heard his voice. Not really sure how I made it through these devastating two months. I know that God carried me and my friends held me up. Today there are tears. I miss him so much. Yesterday I felt his presence during worship at church. I felt him sitting beside me and standing with the Praise Band while they were playing. The peace that I felt was overwhelming . . . but it doesn't last. I hope some day it will not be so elusive. I'm trying not to look too far into the future because it overwhelms me. Still taking life day by day. Still taking those baby steps. Today the pain is right at the surface. Today I long to have Brian with me. Today I'm not quite sure how I can get through this grief journey. Perhaps tomorrow will be more manageable. Thanks to all my friends on this board who have supported me, offered prayer, and just listened when I needed to vent. I could not get through without all of you. Peace, love, and blessings, Linda Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kat2005 Posted November 23, 2009 Report Share Posted November 23, 2009 Linda, I am right there with you. It has been 5 months today that I lost my precious Pat. My thoughts and prayers will be with you today. Hopefully tomorrow will be a brighter day! Take care, Kat Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LindaKoz Posted November 23, 2009 Author Report Share Posted November 23, 2009 Thanks, Kat. I'm sending prayers, thoughts, and hugs your way. Peace, love, and blessings, Linda Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DeeGee Posted November 23, 2009 Report Share Posted November 23, 2009 It will be three months for me on the 29th. I can't even believe that! I miss him so-o-o much. It is really lonely not to have that person to talk to with whom you discussed EVERYTHING! And I have been thinking about that lately. I have noticed that those who post here are describing relationships that were very, very close. Perhaps the grief is not as bad when the relationship was not all that close? I don't know. My best to all of you, DeeGee Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Korina Posted November 23, 2009 Report Share Posted November 23, 2009 My heart is with you, Linda. Hugs, Korina Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
David'sGirlStill Posted November 23, 2009 Report Share Posted November 23, 2009 Linda, My heart goes out to you. My David left this earth 9 moths ago today. I truly wish I could tell you I was doing well today but I can't. It's raining here and I told my coworker the angels were crying for me. Now I thing thier crying for all of us. Cuz lord knows we are all in this together. i wish i could come sit with you today, if it's only to cry together. My love and hugs Phyllis Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LindaKoz Posted November 23, 2009 Author Report Share Posted November 23, 2009 Hi Phyllis, Thanks for understanding and for your offer to cry with me (which we actually could do because I'm in Reading, Pa). I'm going to go have a beer or two with my sister and brother-in-law. I think it will be better than staying home alone and they are both okay with me crying. Brian was a beer drinker and we used to have happy hour together at home on Fridays -- or lousy days. I'll just go out this time. I know he'll be right there with me. I miss him so much and today the pain is overwhelming. Peace, love, and blessings, Linda Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
derby Posted November 24, 2009 Report Share Posted November 24, 2009 Dear inspring Linda, Your words, as I have said to you before, have been so helpful and inspiring. 2 months is still just that, only 2 months. You are doing everything in your power to heal, comfort, and get through this journey. And along the way, you have helped many of us that are with you on this walk. May you feel Brian's love and God's peace. Here is a big hug from Lancaster County.......my thoughts and prayers with you, especially tonight my friend. Blessings, Debbie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jsph110 Posted November 24, 2009 Report Share Posted November 24, 2009 Yesterday I felt his presence during worship at church. I felt him sitting beside me and standing with the Praise Band while they were playing. The peace that I felt was overwhelming . . . but it doesn't last. I hope some day it will not be so elusive. It was him trying not to look too far into the future because it overwhelms me. Still taking life day by day. Still taking those baby steps. Today the pain is right at the surface. Today I long to have Brian with me. Today I'm not quite sure how I can get through this grief journey. Perhaps tomorrow will be more manageable. to all my friends on this board who have supported me, offered prayer, and just listened when I needed to vent. Keep posting Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LindaKoz Posted November 24, 2009 Author Report Share Posted November 24, 2009 Thanks everyone. I made it through the dreaded day. Being with my sister helped because we talked about Brian. She loves and misses him, too. I keep reaching for those moments of clarity and peace. They are fleeting but when they do come they give some respite to my overwhelmed and devastated soul. I'm leaning on God and grappling with the questions. Prayers and hugs to all my friends. Peace, love, and blessings, Linda Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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