redwind30 Posted June 25, 2010 Report Share Posted June 25, 2010 I lost my wonderful husband two months ago yesterday. It seems things are getting worse rather than better. I have spent the past two weeks trying to get some of his things cleared out and donated. I guess it really kept my mind busy. Yesterday was the first day that I did not have “something to do”. I ended up sleeping most of the day which I know is not good. I can’t sleep all day every day to avoid the pain. I feel like I have to be careful not to let myself get depressed on top of the grieving. Does that make sense to anyone else? There seems to be a difference at least for me between grief and depression. I don’t know how to explain it. Maybe I don’t even know what I am talking about. I know I have to face it and figure out a way to live with it. This is what my life looks like now. There is just so much pain; some days I feel like I cannot even breathe. I don’t want to go anywhere. I don’t really want to see anyone, yet I am so lonely I know it will be good for me to spend time with people. So many conflicting emotions. I feel so confused, empty and alone. Emptiness seems to be the best word to describe the way I feel most of the time. Thanks for listening and being here for me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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