sereph Posted March 8, 2006 Report Share Posted March 8, 2006 hi. just joined today so hello to everybody first.a friend of mine died on Feb 27. i have been struggling to cope since then.we met only a few months ago when i did some work at the theatre where he was based. we knew one another a very short time and i realise that to some of you who have lost someone you have known for years this may seem so selfish and silly but we really connected and i miss him so much.he was only 26. he had cancer. he told me at xmas he was dieing but then a few weeks ago he told me he had two weeks left. then next thing i heard was that he had passed on. i txted him a few days after he had died and his mother responded telling me he had passed.there wasnt a funeral. if there was one, it was a family only affair. i have no contact with anyone else who knew him. we argued efore he died. he wanted more from me than friendship. he told me i was his fantasy girl, that he cared about me alot and that his last wish was to sleep with me. i said no as i have a long term partner. i hadnt seen him for several weeks before his death. even tho we didnt part angily, and we had said good bye in a manner of speaking, i feel like i am missing a limb. i feel like i hadnt said what i wanted to. i feel cheated of a friendship that mattered to me. even tho i am glad he isnt in pain anymore i feel so unhappy and miss him so much. one moment i am fine, the next i am crying. it makes my partner very unhappy too as he knew my friend wanted more and i dont think he quite understands why i am so upset. i dont understand either. everything reminds me of him. i feel like if i go back to the places that we were together in it will hurt worse than anything. i guess it just comes down to missing my friend.i just need to talk to people who might understand. i dont know what to do. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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