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Erin,I feel ya.my mom passed and it is something i will never get over.I think about her all the time.I too get up,work,try to do things but just can't seem to do anything.it's really hard because we were so close.I just can't handle being here without her.I try to put on a happy face for others but i just can't do it anymore.My Mom passed in Jan and my Dad in June.Losing both of them has just killed me inside.Everything for me has changed so much because I took care of them both for years and now that is gone.I feel so useless and not sure what to do with my time.I was needed by them and now I just don't feel needed like that anymore.Don't think I ever will again.I wiil pray for you to be strong.

This will be my second Mother's day without my Mom and two days after that is my birthday.She would be the first one to text me after midnight to tell me Happy Birthday...anymore birthdays are just another day to me.The kids want to take me to dinner for Mother's day but i don't know if I can do it,afraid I will start crying in the middle of dinner.The crying just comes when ever it wants to,can't seem to control it anymore.Not sure what to do.Don't want to hurt my kids by not going.

thank you.....my older sister who had a stroke a few years back really wants that rock.I don't think I can give it up but I just can't say no to her.gonna keep it awhile first then might take it to her when i"m ready.....

Thank you Marty,they are very helpful.

I also will be thinking of you and sending prayers your way.I understand what you mean about not having the words for how you are feeling.Sending you hugs.....

Thinking alot about my Mom and Dad today.My Mom loved Easter,hiding the eggs when we were little,I remember once my Dad hide them and forgot where a few of them were until we smelled them a week later.lol Will miss taking them dinner tomm like I always did..Guess I will have to eat an extra piece of cheesecake for my Mom she loved my cheesecake.Love to heaven above to all of our loved ones this Easter.I love and miss you Mom and Dad so very much.

thank you guys

I too feel lost without my Mom.she passed Jan 2012.I don't feel like the same person i was.I miss her so very much.

so very sorry..my dad passed 9 months ago and my mom 5 months before that.The pain I feel inside hurts very bady.I miss them both so very much.I cry all the time,I have found that being on this site does help some what.The people here know and feel the same way we do.

yes it is,it's a start.

Thank you ....

I'M STILL WAITING FOR DREAMS ON MY MOM AND DAD BOTH WHO PASSED 5 MONTHS APART.....

I GOT THE ROCK..............SO VERY HAPPY,I CRYED MY EYES OUT.....

OMG...I GOT THE ROCK.......SO VERY HAPPY I CRYED MY EYES OUT.......I HAVE IT SITTING RIGHT OUTSIDE MY DOOR SO WHEN I LEAVE OR COME HOME I SEE IT.IT STILL HAS THERE ADDRESS ON IT AND I'M LEAVING IT THAT WAY.....GREAT DAY.......

very true......

don't know.gonna go again tomm,maybe later in the day.still no call....will let you know.

well no call yet..might have to go over there again.And thanks for not thinking it's silly.....

Thank you,I will try,Patience is one thing I don't do well with at all.

So I went over to where my Mom and Dad lived.There is this big rock that my Dad found when I was very young and put it at the end of the driveway,when we moved them about 10 years ago they took the rock to the new place,when they passed away my brother was going to take the rock.I just found out that he didn't take it so I went over there after work and it's still there.I left a note in the door with my number on it.Hoping the people that live there now will call me.I want that rock.I know it sounds silly,it's just a rock but to me it's not just a rock....My Dad painted it every year since I was little,and it means alot to me....I have to have it.....PLEASE CALL ME SOON......

I feel the same way.My mom passed in Jan and the pain is just to much to handle.miss her so much.

Sorry for your loss.I too lost my mom and dad close together within 6 months.It is very painful for me. I am struggling to come to terms with both of them being gone.

thank you and I will keep trying.

Why can"t I move on.I can't stop thinking about my Mom and Dad.I want things to be the way they were but they never will be.My heart hurts so bad.I feel as if it will never be whole again.I know they are in a better place and no longer in pain but I want them here with me.I'm still having bad dreams about when they died almost every night.I wake up crying and sometimes yelling.I wish they would stop.I don't know what to do anymore.I'm trying to move on with my life but I can't stop thinking about them then I start crying again.People keep telling me it will get better with time and I will move on when I am ready,guess I'm not ready yet.They say when I can make it though the day without crying then I'm doing good.I haven't made it to that point yet.

So sorry about your Mom.I lost both my Mom and Dad 6 months apart this past year and it still hurts so very bad.Mom passed Jan 21,2012 and my Dad June 14,2012.II took care of my Dad after my mo passed so I really didn't have time to grief but then he passed to and I lost it.Still not doing good at all.And I am in disbelief that there are both gone from my life.My emotions are all over the place and can't seem to make them stop.I too try not to cry but I just can't keep them from flowing down my face.Sometimes it feels good to cry and others not so much.I miss her so very much it hurts.I feel as if my heart will never be whole again....

sorry for your loss.I too lost my Mom Jan of 2012.I too have been having problems since she has passed.I don't feel like I will ever me the old me again,which was happy and caring to everyone.Now it's like I just don't care about anything anymore and I know my Mom wouldn't want me to be like this but I just can't seem to make it stop.I can't make this feeling I have inside get better.