R.Everit55

My apologies for being redundant here.  I am aching for my wife plus my grandchildren.  My wife would make all things feel just a little bit lighter.  My heart hurts.  💔💔💔💔😢

When will the pain stop?  💔😢

My heart is with you.  ❤️

Hugs Janka ❤️

I'm pining yearning and aching for my wife. We didn't have enough time.  And I feel guilty saying that compared to those who've had significant less time with their spouse.  I wish there were stairs to heaven. I wish I could dance with my bride again.  I wish I could feel her in my arms once more.  I wish I could hear her sweet I love you's.  There's nothing I want more than to say I'm so sorry for not fighting with the Drs hard enough to find a cure.  I'm so sorry.    

Ryan has Gracie's eyes and mouth.  He's the sweetest baby.  He's cooing so much.  Caleb is really enjoying his baby brother.  I love them beyond words.  

I ache for my bride.  My heart literally aches.  I don't know how I've survived the loss of my wife and four grandchildren.  I don't know 💔😪

Here Ryan  he will be three months on Nov 2nd   He looks a lot like Gracie   

And your Billy's loss was quick.  But all of our loved ones losses seem quick.  😞   Hugs 

I'm so sorry for your friends loss of son.  That's a tragedy.  😞

We all went to the ocean yesterday and put Mary's Lila's and Lily's Noah's and Gracie's ashes together in to the water and we all said something.  It was hard.  But in time it will be healing.  

I ran across this photo of my beautiful bride with Little Man when she was well.  I ache for her.  

Thank you all so very much.  

Our hearts are so broken yet words fail me.  

Oh Marty your words made tears fall.  But maybe that not that bad right now.  Thank you so much. ❤️

Just so broken.  Reality is crashing down on the entire family.   I honestly don't see ever getting through losing our Gracie girl. 💔😪.  

Anne again I can't thank you enough for this.  Your heart is pure and kind.  

Thank everyone for loving our Gracie.  

Thank you Anne for posting.  Lord knows my heart couldn't do it but I know so many loved Gracie.  She was the forums girl.  She was Grampys girl.  I'm asking why too.  But no answers.  My heart is just here broken.  Thank you all for loving Gracie.  

Butch ❤️

Baby Ryan is home.  Toddler Gracie is in the PICU on life support with RSV pneumonia.  We're all terrified of losing her.  😪

Prayers Marty and all in need. 

Both Ryan and Gracie are in the hospital.  Gracie has pneumonia and Ryan has RSV.  He's in the NICU and she's in the pediatric unit.  Both with temps above 103.  They are getting lots of meds.  They have the same dr so they are in the best hands.  

It was so grueling having to tell Mary's friend of her passing.  She was so sorry that she and Mary had lost touch.  

Im having a rough time.  But the grandkids are keeping me busy.  And who can resist a smile looking at baby Ryan

I woke up at three in the morning aching for my bride.  Missing her so very much.  Caleb got up and said he missed Grammy so much.  He said she would make missing Noah better.  It kills me that I can't ease his pain.  

Then I had to take Gracie to the dr as she's been coughing nonstop for several days   She has bronchitis and a double ear infection   

Then the mail came and there was a letter addressed to Mary.  I opened it and it was from a college friend and she doesn't know Mary passed away by her words.  I have to let her know.  That left a horrible taste in my mouth and a heartbreaking feeling in my heart.  

Tomorrow is a new day?  I think I said that yesterday.  😪

I have to start listening to you wise ladies.

I feel like since it's been 31 months since my bride passed I shouldn't be complaining.  I know people think I shouldn't feel like so but I do.  And it's hard to stop.  

I tell Gracie about her Grammy and point out photos of her and she said Grammy for the first time today.  

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