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Joyce

your love still loves you.  I promise you that.  All of our love us.  From afar now.  The missing will never go away. I'm so sorry for the pain in your heart.  

Hugs ❤️

Butch

I'm sorry this is a tough day and my prayers are with you.  None of us had enough time and our hearts are so broken there aren't enough words.  But yes thank you Marty for creating this place of safety for all of us to talk.  

Hugs Darrel

Thanks 

gracie is only with me when Allen works.  I love caring for both Caleb and Gracie.  ❤️

Thank you all for your replies. 

Caleb was in the hospital a while.  He's doing better and will be staying with me because it's a better fit one on one emotionally after losing his brother.  Plus Katie is now on bed rest from now until her due date Oct 1.  

I'm trying very hard to go easy on myself regarding guilt about Mary's death.   Maybe this maybe that I'm trying not to do.  It's so hard.  

I have Gracie with me for the weekend.  I'm trying to just let myself take in whatever I feel about losing Mary and the grandkids too.  But especially Mary I feel like if I can make as much peace with her passing then maybe I could be the strong one again and help my son and dil grieve their babies and son.  I'm trying hard.  I pray a lot.  Yet at the same time I do question the Lord.  

Heres another pic of my Grace.  ❤️

Thank you all so very much.  Your words and caring means so much.  Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve kindness.  

Im having Gracie for the weekend.  She just melts my heart.  

Here's a cute pic of her   ?

Thank you Gin 

Thank you Marty and Anne.  

I'm telling Allen and Katie that I need more of a break from caring for Caleb and Gracie so I can have me time.  

I've had to be the strong one and hold our family up for 29 months tomorrow.  And I can't do it anymore.  I beg for strength from my bride from heaven.  I've had to hold my family up thru her passing and the passing of my twin granddaughters and grandson.  When will my heart get a break?   It hurts beyond words.  I ask God why every night when I pray.  But there are no answers.  

June 20th would be Noah's 12th birthday.  

Yes Kay thank you

coming nov 1st is another grandson.  Allen and Katie have chosen the name Ryan Noah.  Noah after his big brother in heaven 

Here's a pic of my second grandson Caleb with the first real genuine smile since his big brother passed on. 

My heart hurts so badly there aren't enough words.  I miss them all so much.  ?

I miss her...

Thank you so very much with all my heart.   

I'm letting everyone know Allen and Katie found out the baby is a boy.  So I will get another grandson first week of October.  I have mixed feelings after losing Noah.  I don't want to replace him.  

Thank you ladies for all of your understanding ❤️

I lost my oldest grandson April 4 of this year.  He was eleven years old.  He had a biking accident because my son and dil forgot to remind him to put his helmet on.  I also lost twin premature granddaughters last year.  This all after losing my beautiful wife of 28 yrs January 9 of 2015.  

I miss my grandson most right now.  He was our first.  I have a younger grandson who misses his older brother immensely.  Noah and I had a special bond.  

I'm heartbroken ?

Butch

Sunday was our 28th anniversary of the day Mary became my bride.  It's now 36 years since I knew we'd spend a life together.   I miss her so much there aren't enough words.  That got cut too short by an angry disease called ALS.  And I hate it.  My only solace is she has our granddaughters with her and our oldest grandson.  But even that breaks my heart.  I wish we had more time.  ?

Thank you all

today we'll have to endure a memorial/celebration of life for my first grandchild Noah.  This is an utterly hard road to walk without my wife by my side.  Allen and Katie have each other.  I'm there for everyone.  But I walk this road alone when my bride should still be here.  But wait... we shouldn't even be walking any of this road.  It hurts.  ?

I'm not sure what to say.  I just needed to visit here.  Things are so tough for everyone here.  Caleb the most.  Even Gracie is having a hard time sensing the grief.  

Butch

All I can manage is thank you from the bottom of mine and my family's hearts.  Peace and love to you all.

  Butch 

I'm sorry to bring this heart wrenching news on my grandson.  He stroked out and has no brain function which is worse than what occurred yesterday.  At least there was hope then.  Allen cannot get Katie to accept what is.  I am having a hard time doing well as well.  Please pray for our family.  I know you have all carried my family a long way.  I thank you from all of our hearts.  

Butch

For smiles ?