Mom's angel

Thank you so much for your kind words

In my 20years of living there was not a single day that I had spent without my mom. She was my world and I was hers. She was more like a best friend to me.. She played videogames with me, we went to trips together, she cooked food for me.. It was like she was for me and I was for her.. And then.. Within a matter of 3days I lost her. I still cannot forget the moment when I saw her lying there numb.. I touched her she was cold. I was not there with her when she took her last breathe.. It feels like everything that was within me collapsed. Its been 23days and I still think that she'll magically appear from somewhere. Whenever I see some nice thing or anything.. That first thing that hits me is-let me take it to mummy or let me ask mummy.. And then I realise she's no more- worst feeling ever. I cannot even die because my family loves me so much, they are like doing everything possible to make me happy.. But how can I be happy without the girl who meant the world to me.. Today's my exam. I was a first ranker and my mummy was so proud of me.. But I didn't studied for this exam.. She used to be awake with me till late at night so that I can concentrate. There's a thought of her in everything I see. It seems like she died just yesterday. I feel like quitting.. I don't want to study any more. She was just 42..