Mom's angel

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That's great!., beautiful poem..I can relate to the poem. It comforts me.

I don't know what to say to comfort you.. as my grief is very fresh. Its been a month and 6days since my mom died. But I wish you strength and courage as you're going through difficult time. There are times when I just cry and yell that I want my mom back but the difference is my family support and helps me through the grief, I wish your family supports you too and understand your grief.

I read this poem somewhere and its beautiful, so just wanted to share it. Look up to the sky Now tell me what you see A cloud, the moon, possibly the sun Many answers there will be When I look up to the sky I'll tell you what I see I see my mother And she's looking back at me She tells me she didn't want to leave us But it was time for her to depart It was the hardest thing she had to do And it's breaking her heart She tells me we mustn't be sad Because finally she's pain free She's found her place in heaven Underneath a blossom tree She'll always be there to guide us When we feel we've lost the way She'll always be there to comfort us And wipe those tears away She'll always be there to share our joy And laugh at the jokes we make In order to feel her presence Only a little imagination it'll take She may be in the form of a butterfly Or simply a floating feather Or hovering over like a busy bee Or simply part of the weather You've all come here to say your farewell But for me it's not goodbye If I want to see her, all I have to do Is look up to the sky

Thank you kayc, We'll all meet our loved ones soon..that's what I'm looking up to. People won't understand the pain of losing someone close until they feel it too, on the other side people like us who have felt the grief wouldn't want someone else to go through it.

Thank you ceili, I wish my mom hears every word I speak. I wish my actions reflects what she wanted to do. I wish she sees the world through me. I wish the moments she missed- my brothers wedding, my graduation, my wedding, birth of her grandchild- she feels sees and enjoy through me... I have respect and love for all who are grieving the loss of loved ones, Because though we look the same but everything inside us has changed. The world looks at us the same way but we cannot look at it like we used to. Forcing a smile when everyone's around is hard. When my mom died I was like "the world should have stopped.. Why are people still hanging around laughing and all.. Why? My mom died she was so young.. The world should have stopped right at the moment she died". But we all know the world don't stop for anyone. My mom died during the time of a festival... People were celebrating, blowing crackers, booms and all type of firework. I couldn't even describe what I was feeling at that time. I wanted to go upto them and shout that " stop it my mom died.. Stop it". All the houses nearby were lit up by lanterns and ours was in the dark.. People were dressed so well.. Happiness was all around and I was drowning in my grief.. Now Christmas will come and the same thing will happen again,. I never had experienced death of any close relative or friend before. Just an aunty in the neighbourhood died years ago, I remember me and my mom didn't celebrated anything for a year just to make her daughter feel little well. Her daughter then moved to another Town. I wish people around us understand the same and acts likewise, but again why would someone care when life's so fair with them.

A month has passed since I saw my mom's pretty face. A month has passed without talking and listening to a person without talking to whom I wouldn't spend a minute. A month has passed since I haven't tasted her Delicious food. A month has passed since the day she passed away.. But it seems like she died yesterday, I still can feel the gentle touch of her hand, the love in her kisses, her joyous smile, hear her lovely voice, I can still feel her like it was yesterday. It seems like she'll walk from somewhere and call my name and I'll run up to her and hug her so tight that I'll never let her go.. Every night I dream about me & her being together and wakeup with a smile than cry cause it was only a dream. Yesterday my cousin took me for shopping-the first time without mom..There was not a single item in the store I wouldn't have looked up to and thought "let me buy it for mummy". My lovely mum, she looked so Amazing. She was,is and will always be my superhero.. She faced life challenges courageously and taught me to fight difficulties courageously. No matter how much time passes by I'll never be able to get over her death I don't want to forget her.I want to keep rewinding each and every memory we created together. Months years or decades she'll always be missed.

Losing loved ones at a young age is very difficult. I lost my mom, she was 42 on nov20. Those who haven't experienced such lose don't know how to talk to someone who has been through it. Most of my friend starts the conversation with 'how are you?' They just don't understand that its not the right question. How am I supposed to be after I lost my whole world? I know they are concerned but.. Few days after my mom died I went for my exam.. One of my friend commented that " if I was in your place, I wouldn't have shown up for the exam" I was thinking like no you don't know how its like to be in my place..you don't know how hard I tried to get here grabbing all my broken pieces. Its just they don't understand. I'll pray for us all.

Its beautiful.It felt like my mom was saying this all.

Thanks brad.. Losing mom is hard. I hope your daughter gets all the courage to go on. We daughters have special connection with our moms.

Gwenivere I lost my mom 20nov she was 42. I feel exactly the same way.

It means a lot to me.. Thank you

its so hard, i could have faced anything in the world if she was with me. I know her soul's with me, but her opinion means a lot to me.. I cannot make decisions even about the tiniest thing.The confident I had is all gone with her. Buy I'm trying as I don't have any other choice.

I'm so glad that you can relate. A few days ago I accidentally smashed my finger in my door, I cried so hard, not because it hurted bad, but because I couldn't run to mummy and tell her about it (as I usually did) She would take my finger and pamper it as if it was her own hurting finger? I know what you're feeling.

I have to force stop the tears sometimes because once I let them roll out I cannot stop them. Its like I cry and then I cry harder.

I can talk about her all day, that's a nice suggestion. I talked to my teachers today and they really supported me.. They were very much against the idea of me quitting studies. They said they'll help me in every way possible but I'll have to complete my graduation. I got a 7days break from college. But it's so hard to keep going when mom's not with me. Most of the times the grief surrounds me.. The emptiness within is eating me. I was a happy, cheerfull girl before who hardly cried..but now crying seems like a daily routine.

Yes it is.. At times living seems harder then dying

deb1 We have so much in common. The thing about being jealous seeing old people is so true - I can relate to that.. Those who haven't yet experienced such loss don't understand. I don't cry in front of people and so they think that I'm managing everything so well.. But deep down it's just us who knows what it actually feels like. For the connection in everything, yes each and every thing reminds me of her. When she was alive.. I used to tell her everything about exam like how was it, how much marks am I expecting, which questions were hard etc.. and she used to listen every word of mine with interest. Now when I was returning home after my first exam it felt so empty. Today when I went home from exam I somehow forgot that she's no more.. And when I rang the doorbell I felt I heard her voice from inside the house.. But then my dad opened the door.. The sudden realization of her death are painful. I do also have dreams about her. I wish I can somehow stay in the dreams with her forever.. I do write about her. I have written every single thing I remember about her. You should also do it, that's a nice idea. I feel so bad about her future grandchildren who will never get a chance to met their awesome grandmother.

You're very strong and helpful. I feel like expressing so many things but don't know how to put them down in words.. You've been through a lot and still going on with life.. I'll remember this whenever I feel sad

We all have lost someone very close to us. The silence hurts.. We feel different from the rest of the world, seeing someone happy we remember the days when we were happy and then feel sad. But what are we crying for..? We're crying for the love we used to get from them..for the feeling of happiness oneness and security we felt with them. We should not cry. My mom never liked it when I cried.. Whenever she saw me crying, she always cried. I feel its so bad to trouble her by crying when she's at peace in heaven with god..? She's at a better place. May be death is not as bad as we think of it..may be there's a much better and beautiful world after death. I'll go there one day.. We'll all have to go there one day.. My mom was so much worried about me.. That what will I do when she'll die.. She used to tell me that if such day ever comes in my life, I'll have to face it bravely, that life don't stop for anyone its keeps moving and I can't sit there crying.. She told me that I'll have to move on... This words of her are the only thing that gives me strength to live on. Whenever I think of something bad, this words of her keeps echoing in my head, its seems like her soul is reminding me this thing again and again that I'll have to live.. But the sad part is I'll have to live without her..?

we'll have to live with this grief.. We can only hope to meet our loved one again.. But be strong.

True

But that's just not fair.. no relative or friend of mine has lost his/her mother.. They're all with their mother. After reading the experience of people here.. The feeling of loneliness is gone, I'm not alone..there are many people who have lost a loved one.. Maybe that's just what destiny is.. I'll pray that we'll all meet our loved one again.

I'm in college.I don't think so they can help and that's OK.. This are practical exams I don't think so they'll stop or delay it for me.Now just two more days.. Then I'll ask for a month's leave from college.

I went for my exam today it was okay.. Friends really supported me.. I haven't yet told the teachers about this..but I'll have to as I need a break.. The painful thing is that nothing has changed.. Everything's the same, just she's nowhere.. I loved my birthday.. She always does something special for me.. On my last birthday she told me that She'll do something extra special for me.. My birthday is in January.. It feels so bad. My Relatives says everything will heal with time.. But my yearning for her increases every day.. Was it even necessary for her to die? I have never wished or meant any harm to anyone.. I don't know why god did this to me...,! Why did he separated us. I constantly feel her presence.. That's so comforting but I haven't yet received any sings from her.. I wish heaven exists and I'll meet her again in heaven..