A&K

Mom, you were my everything. You loved adored and respected me throughout my entire life. It broke my spirit seeing that rotten disease on top of all your health issues take so many of your faculties slowly. Dad calls ALS an angry unforgiving disease. I agree. It stole you from us all even before you went to heaven. Thank you for loving me and always making my life better. Thank you for not getting mad at myself and Katie when we had Noah at such a young age. Now he’s in your arms until we can be there one day. I love you mom. You’ll always be my hero. Your son, Allen.

Noah, our first born. Our oldest son. You will forever be the heart of this family. You were a great big brother. You are our pride and joy. For 12 years you made us so proud. You’ll always make us proud. Lily and Lila, our first baby girls. I’m sorry God brought you to us much too early. I’m sorry we couldn’t do more to help you survive. You girls are our tiniest princess’. Thank you for fight so hard Gracie girl, our sunshine and pure happiness You were born early too but you were so stubborn you wouldn’t settle for anything but living And that’s just what you did for a year and a half We are sorry the RSV pneumonia took such a huge hold of your little body You will always be our princess Our four heavenly angels live in mommy and daddy’s hearts like a lifeline We will hold onto that for all our days We love you so much and miss you 😘

Our precious Gracie was our pure light when we needed it. It was just as much a shock to us that she didn’t pull through. The RSV pneumonia was just too much for her little body. My Dad had a better day today. He participated in groups. He’s talking now. He’s got a long way to go and it scares me when he does get to come home. But I think he will fight because he loves Caleb and Ryan so much. Katie and I are having some communication issues and guilt. But that’s what our therapy is for. Caleb is doing exceptionally being homeschooled. And Ryan is growing like a weed. He’s started on real food. He’s like his big sister Gracie. Full of love and light. Allen.

Katie and I have been seeing a therapist for some time now. Caleb is in therapy. And my Dad is obviously in therapy since he’s inpatient. Katie and I have grief inside of us but neither one of us know what to say. Only that it’s completely unfair that four of our six children were not good enough to stay in this life. Allen i enclosed pics of Ryan as it’s uncanny how much he resembles Gracie. I wish she were here.

This utterly horribly upsets me. My mom and four children are gone and Katie and I are broken. My father is inpatient broken. The world is on my shoulders. Allen