He was in a Hot Springs Hospital, St. Vincent, when he passed. We live in (I am going to go ahead and leave the "we" because I still think of him here) in Mount Ida, AR. I think we just went over 1000 population. Our home state was Louisiana though, my relatives are there and I think I will eventually go back. I have friends there that have gone through this. My neighbor did also though, and I will miss her very much. Billy and I were never "homesteaders." We preferred to RV travel and we only settled down to help raise our now 16-year-old granddaughter. I don't think I have cried today. I have come close. I went in to see my friends at St. Vincent (used to be St. Joseph's) and I had retired from there. Also retired from LSU in Shreveport, so will be gong back to around the Minden area. No snap decisions. Gonna take it easy. Our lawyer told me to wait a year before I made major decisions but I think and hope by spring I will know what to do. This was not supposed to be him. I was supposed to go first. I used to read him romantic tragedies about husbands and wives who died within hours of each other. He finally told me that he would not want to live if I went first, but he would try to carry on the best he could. Maybe he was telling me something. But, I was the one that was sick, he was only ill about seven weeks. I know I should take comfort in that, but right now I feel no comfort. I just miss him and screaming into pillows only gives you a headache. Thank God for my support system of girls I graduated high school with and my neighbor and middle aged kids. Thanks for responding.