babybrat07

I know its hard. In 1999 when I was 14 years old my 14 year old cousin Andrew took his life too. All we know is that some Seniors from his school had been beating him up and tormenting him and so we figured he didn't want to deal with it anymore. The Seniors were suspended from one football game.. that was their punishment. It's hard to understand and I know exactly where you are coming from. If you ever need to talk feel free to leave me a message or something. Love, Katie

I feel guilty sometimes. I too have lost a lot of loved ones over the past 7 years. I have lost over ten people in the last 7 years and it has been a real struggle... and I am only 20 years old. My cousins death was one of the three hardest deaths for me. We were 14 he was four days into his freshman year of highschool I was about a month into mine.. when he took his life. I was devistated because we were the same age and I felt really guilty about all the things I am able to do now that he will never get the chance to do like going to college, dating, getting a real job, one day getting married and having a family.. and growing old. I also lost my grandpa to cancer. He was special to me because we shared our birthday together and we were really close. I feel guilty every year on my birthday because even though its a happy time.. I feel so sad because he isn't here with me anymore. I also lost my grandma to cancer and I was really close with her as well. I really miss her a lot. So yes I have felt guilty like all of you. I think everyone who experiences death will feel that way at some point in time. Thanks for sharing your story and if you ever need to talk I like the rest of us am here for you. Katie

Hey again, I am not sure if you got my other post but thats ok. My name is Katie and I too have lost a lot of loved ones. We took care of my grandma for a year and half while she dealt with lung cancer. It was really hard to watch her decline. I know how you feel and I understand you completely. You can find out more about the loved ones that I lost if you go read my post under teens talking to teens. The greatest loss for me was probably my grandpa because I was really close with him. I shared my birthday with him and now I feel guilty on my birthday because I try to be happy because its a happy day and yet I feel so sad because I know he should be happy with me. I too am like you in another way. I am 20 and I have never been out with a guy. When my dad left my brother took care of me but we grew up being dependent on each other. We had to grow up fast and often times I go back to wanting to be a child again. But I have grown up a lot these past few years. If you ever want to talk just let me know.

Hey truckgirl, No one is too old for this group. I am 20 myself so we are pretty close in age. I myself had to grow up quite fast too. My dad left when I was 6 and he and my mom divorced when I was 9. He left me and my older brother to take care of ourselves because my mom worked all the time. When she wasn't working she was at home sleeping so we had to learn how to take care of ourselves. I know you are in a different position but in reality we are a lot alike. If you want you can go look at my story my user name is babybrat07. If you ever want to talk I am here to listen.

I wish to tell you all that we had yet another death in our family. We had some family from Illinois come down here to Arizona for my brothers wedding, Commissioning into the USAF and College graduation. It was a very eventful week. My family came down on Tuesday May 3rd. My brother got married May 5th and that was the morning when my uncle called to tell us that my moms Aunt Ginny who had been suffering from Alzheimers had passed away during the night. We were lucky to have family here who gave us support and love. I just wanted to let you all know whats been going on in my neck of the woods.

My name is also Katie and I am 20 years old but the first time I ever lost someone I was 14 years old. It is a tough age to lose someone especially if you are close to them. The person I lost when I was 14 was my 14 year old cousin Andrew who committed suicide after 4 day into high school. I have lost several others a long the way. Feel free to check out my post under babybrat07 and also you can visit my website. Also feel free to chat with me anytime I am a good listener and I have been where you are now so many times so feel free to talk to me whenever you want. My thoughts are with you.

Hi Katie, My name is also Katie and I just posted my information. I too have endured many losses in my life. I lost both my maternal grandparents, a great grandma, two step grandmas, a cousin, two uncles, and a great uncle. All of this has happened in the last seven years. It is hard to deal with because I keep losing as I grow. It seems to happen one right after another. So much heartbreak has occured but their hasn't been enough time to heal from it. Talking and opening up really does help and it is something else to find out that their are so many others out there who have lost someone. If you ever get the chance you can read my post. (my name on here is babybrat07) I also have a website you can look at and you can find the link to that on my post as well. I am here if you ever need to talk. I am a great listener and I am here as a friend if you should ever need one to talk with.

Marty, Thats is fine with me. I think it would be nice if others came to visit my website and I welcome those who wish to look through it. Please post my link up by all means. Katie

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I feel the exact same way you feel. My name is Katie and I too feel selfish sometimes. I feel like I can't do anything without feeling quilty. I have lost a lot of people and if you ever come across my post (my name is babybrat07) you will see what I mean. In my post you will find that I lost my grandpa who I shared my birthday with. I hate celebrating my birthday because so badly do I want to have fun but then I feel guilty because I am able to do that and he can't. I hate that he isn't there with me having fun. I think the best thing is talking about it because it gets so much lifted off of you. I can honestly say that it truly helps to just talk about it. I also want you to know that I can be a friend and I have a really good ear and I am a good listener if you ever want to talk.

My name is Katie I am 20 and I am a teen volunteer for Hospice of the Valley. I have attended two different teen grief and bereavement groups in the last year. Since the year 1999 my family has suffered the loss of a family member each year. In 1999 when I was 14 my cousin who was also 14 committed suicide. His death was one of the hardest ones to deal with being that he was my age. In 2001 I lost my step grandma to lung cancer and I also lost my great grandma. Also in 2001 my maternal grandma was diagnosed with lung cancer, she passed away in May of 2002. It has been such a struggle losing all these members of my family and things just seem to get worse. In November of 2002 the day after Thanksgiving, my grandpa who I share my birthday with went into the hospital where he was diagnosed with Hodgkins Disease. My grandpa died in March of 2003 right before my highschool graduation. Once again in September of 2003 we lost another family member. My dads youngest brother was at a lake with his girlfriend and another couple. There at the lake he jumped in off of the boat, came up struggling, went back down and then was not found for three days. After my uncles passing we endured two more deaths. My stepdads mother passed away in January of 2004 and my Aunts husband passed away in November of 2004 he too took his life like my cousin did. Such a young age and such a short amount of time and everyone is disappearing from my life. Not only did I endure the loss of so many family members in a way I lost my father who left when I was only 9. Most people hear my story and immediately drop their jaw with awe. Just a couple of hours ago I found out that my moms uncle who had also been diagnosed with lung cancer took his life yesterday. So much heartbreak and not enough time to heal. I am very interested in reading other peoples opinion and I wish for all the support I can get. Thanks to all of you who read my post and reply.