Guest Guest_jen_* Posted April 6, 2006 Report Share Posted April 6, 2006 I lost my mother died recently, I had just turned 20 when it happened. She had been sick since I was a little girl but had been healthy and then everthing quickly changed. She was my only parent, but I have sisters much older than me. I had isolated myself completely to be with my mom because I became so consumed with the thought of losing her, but my sisters detached themselves from our family. Now my sisters have moved on, have partners and lives of their own and I feel completely alone and lost. I always had these pillars in my lives, and now it feels like everything is uprooted and now in my early twenties, I feel like a child crying for a sense of belonging. Its as if the day i turned twenty that I had to be grown up and know how to fend for myself. But I've been too busy worrying how to keep my mother on this earth than worrying about what i would do if she ever left me.I'm staying with my sister, and don't have any other place to go and its apparant that it is a burden on her husband. I feel so trapped in my life, and I miss my mother's love so much. I miss having a place to call home. I can't seem to figure out how to build a life on my own now. Does it get any easier? How do we teach ourselves to grow up?? Any wisdom? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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