Ztyu123 Posted April 24, 2022 Report Share Posted April 24, 2022 I do not belong here. I was put here. Everyday is terrible Everyday I cry Every night i weep Endlessly. Pstd random flashbacks. Sleeping most of the time. Avoiding society the best and as often as possible still not careful enough.. I get caught. They ask of you, not about you. They hear it. They see it. The croak The shakiness The raspiness The heart racing The heart dropping They pretend to care They don't stay They dont witness the further breakdown and breach of sanity when behind closed doors. They dont witness tears trying to turn into blood Everyday and night i wish upon everything that I've been left with (The guilt, the anger, the desperation, the hurt, the pain, the tears, the remorse, the silence, the loneliness, my bleeding heart) To the Universe For it to spare a little ..give a little For it to allow me to genuinely know that you're happy, healthy, loved, cared for, and okay now... Wherever Whenever You are now. It gives nothing but torture. Maybe I'm undeserving... Maybe I didn't love you enough Maybe I'm the monster and it's protecting you. After all...I've been left in this cruel state of existence and in this world. Still waiting on that invitation to join you. Weather is changing. Winter is being ambushed, strangled, held hostage.. it still. hangs in an unequivocal balance. Still fighting. I'd rather it'd be Winter all of the time. Everything fighting and clinging onto survival and each other. Accepting it's fate to be still as possible hoping not to break. Its existence. Everything beautifully still. Everything questioning it's survival. Unsure of its revival It's almost summer. I strongly on the verge of hate Thriving 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted April 25, 2022 Report Share Posted April 25, 2022 Don't let hate change who you are, I try not to let external forces (people/circumstance) have the power to change who I am. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
My beautuful Tiger Posted April 29, 2022 Report Share Posted April 29, 2022 On 4/24/2022 at 9:43 PM, Ztyu123 said: I'd rather it'd be Winter all of the time I know what you mean 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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