AnnieO Posted November 25, 2007 Report Share Posted November 25, 2007 Well, I survived one of the most emotional week-ends of my life. I am so exhausted that I am completely numb and afraid of what this next week will bring when the numbness wears off.I hosted Thanksgiving(the first without my mom and dad) at my house with 31 people and then on Saturday we had a memorial service for my parents here.I have been a wreck for weeks and weeks, planning the service, wanting it to be perfect. And it was.It was very small, personal and exactly what my parents would have liked. There was laughter and tears and wonderful stories and as per my mom's wishe..good food and really good wine! I was so afraid I wouldn't be able to get thru it, but as I was pressing my son's pants the laundry room door, slowly closed(it has never happened before) and yes it was probably the furnace kicking on but in that moment I felt my mom's strength and I knew she would be with me thru-out the day. I managed to get thru the day and at one point my daughter had written something she wanted to read but became too emotional to read it, I stood up and read it and got thru it. As I looked around my house it was filled with people that loved my parents , my house never seemed so warm and full of light and love. I have no doubt my parents were there with us. My mom will be gone one year on Dec.7, my dad has been gone 2 months. I have been so focused on getting thru Thanksgiving and the memorial that I have not allowed myself to think about them,at all. Now,I know what is ahead of me and I won't be able to stay in denial. But, yesterday I know my mom and dad were so proud of me and that makes me smile. Thanks for listening. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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