2sweetgirls Posted June 9, 2010 Report Share Posted June 9, 2010 Yesterday I met with some friends for coffee and a neighbor of a friend came over too. To make a long story short, she had an exploratory surgery done to repair a valve in her heart a month ago. She looks great and after seeing her and hearing her story (mom died of a leaking valve in her heart), I felt physically ill. I wanted to throw up!! Maybe mom was too old for a procedure like that or maybe it could have saved her. The thought kills me.... Tomorrow is my 40th birthday and I just can't stop feeling absolutely horrible that I won't be able to talk to my mom. I never thought that I would have to pass this day without her, my precious mom. It's just ironic, she is the one who brought me into this world and we can't celebrate together because she's gone to another world. Who cares about birthdays - 40 or any. Today is a gloomy rainy day here and I can't seem to pick myself up. My husband asked me what I want to do - anything special. I hate the "slipping back" days. I wish I could just keep moving forward. Whatever, I just don't care............... Thank you for listening, as always. 2sweetgirls (the only things that keep me going) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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