Hol Posted October 8, 2010 Report Share Posted October 8, 2010 I lost my mom and best friend June of 2007. I was well into this grief thing. Not a day would pass without feeling the horrible loss and separation. Even today, it makes me gasp when I think about her not being here. Just before Christmas of 2009, I lost my father. An equally great loss, he was a terribly good man. I was left their home, a home that I grew up in, a home where he installed his own hand built cabinets. They made so many changes over the years to it and it became a beautiful home. I have my own house. I could not maintain both, so I decided to put his up for rent being that mine is too far gone. I no longer know where to call home or where to go. I know I'm an adult. But,I have been left with no family members. When I get into these slumps, I contact my friends. However, they all have their lives and they consider my situation "the poor little rich girl" that has two homes. If it was up to me, I'd gladly give one up just to have my family back. I also had three sweet dogs last year, two died, one of a brain tumor and the other of metastic cancer. They were older dogs, but links to my family. The one I favored the most died the day before my father did. I sometimes wonder about the meaning of life and what is in store. It seems like I was meant to be alone, I even had to lose two dogs in the process !! I wonder what is next, I have nothing more to lose at this point. I thought things would get easier, but today I handed the keys over to the tenant, I got a sickening feeling that the next time I go into the home, my parents won't be the last ones that lived in it. My mom grew up in the projects and my dad grew up in a very poor part of town. They both worked so hard to the house and make it a home for everyone. I hope I did not make a mistake. I am heart broken and just wish for my family to come back as many of you do also. I am so sad and I don't even know who to talk to anymore. Friends become too bust with their own living and I have died, but am still here. I hope to one day see my parents again, to know things did not end here, they were both too young to pass and I find it really odd my dad had to go so soon after her. He did not have any debilitating illness. Hugs to all of you .... Holly Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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