melina Posted October 20, 2010 Report Share Posted October 20, 2010 Warning - this is depressing, so if you're feeling down, don't read. I have no blog or journal, so I'm pouring out my feelings here. Another tidal wave has hit me tonight and I'm feeling horrible. I'm alone in the house, my youngest son is out at a class. I'm glad he's found something he likes to do. I hope all our kids find their paths and move on with their lives. As for me, I can't see any future, there is no comfort anywhere and I'm so lonely I could scream. I try to empty boxes of books and cds - things my husband loved. But I see no point in putting books on the shelves that he'll never see again, or put cds on the racks that he'll never listen to. None of these things hold any interest for me. They are just a reminder that he's not here. I'm 52, at an age where I can't see starting over with anyone else. I'm not going to have any more children. My life is behind me. I have no interest in work any longer either. Why do these tidal waves have to hit so often? Just when I think I'm getting somewhere, I'm knocked over again. It's like someone is out to get me, to punish me. Where will I find the strength to continue? Melina Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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