wmjsca Posted December 16, 2010 Report Share Posted December 16, 2010 I just don't know how to become social again without feeling as though people 'pity' me. I mean, I didn't ask for this, nor did I cause it. I didn't ask to be without my partner, and I don't enjoy going to the places I'm invited 'alone'. It's like, as soon as I walk in, I get this look from everybody like, 'that poor thing'. The sad eyes, the sad looks, the comments about him being better off where he is, he's no longer in pain, etc. Then they go on about their lives and I'm in this seemingly separate world where nothing even matters anymore. None of what they're saying matters to me and I know I'll be leaving alone and returning home alone. I just cannot even fathom things will ever feel any better. I find myself timing my arrival and departure like clockwork. How do you get back in touch with the world? I mean, beyond those things that have to be done, what do I care about parties, dinners, movies--anything involving fun? What is fun anymore? I hate that Clint is gone and our life is over. The intense pain has lessened a bit, but when will life make sense again? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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