sunstreet Posted January 5, 2011 Report Share Posted January 5, 2011 http://www.youtube.c...h?v=rl8SuLBCq3k Because you Loved Me ~ it is our song ~ I played it at Melissa's funeral ~ It says it all for me. Some background, the last moment I spent with Melissa alive was the morning of December 25, 2003 and before I left for work that day she wanted to slow dance to ~ our song ~ I am so grateful that we did as when I returned from work, I found her sleeping in bed already ( at least that is what I expected and thought) I quietly crawled into bed beside her so as not to wake or disturb her and I let myself sleep. I woke in the night, got up to get a glass of water. Whenever I did this Melissa, would wake and come to the kitchen, put her arms around me, and say "you OK babe, another bad nightmare?" She did not wake and come this night. I went back to the bedroom and went round her side of the bed as she was facing that way to give her a gentle kiss on her forehead thinking she was just very tired. She did not wake ever again. I try to focus only on the slow dance to our song from that Christmas, that year. I can share this with you all because I feel safe with you all. I feel accepted. I feel love from you all. I want to share the most sacred and special person to me with you and what are last moment in life was like. We were slow dancing in our living room, with the fireplace burning. Today, when I got home from the dentist, I turned the fireplace on, started ~ our song~ and slow danced with my cat, closed my eyes and thought of my Melissa. Thank you all for helping me to heal so much that I could do this and feel nothing but peace and warmth and able to release some tears that have needed to come from the very depths of my soul, you all have helped me feel safe enough to finally be able to release those tears, wonderfully healing tears. I might not be on as much the next few days. The root canal, ended up being more dental surgery. I need to rest up for the parole hearing, as it will take all I can muster. Blessings and Courage, Carol Ann Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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