danosgirl Posted January 20, 2011 Report Share Posted January 20, 2011 I lost my Dan 5 months ago we were technically together for 10 months. He passed away from a major heart attack at our new home in my arms. Right from the beginning our relationship had struggled with the "what if" factor. We first met when we were 14 in high school. There were sparks right from the start but at the time I was dating someone else. We remaind best friends all through high school and he was even an usher at my wedding. So after my seperation after 20 years we recindled our friendship and decided to give "us" a try. We were sooooo happy he moved in after a month and we found ourselves talking about the old days and saying "what if". We finally agreed to not do that to ourselves. I have three boys whom I am sooo proud of and he had a son who was the apple of his eye. So how could we regret the path we had taken. So we decided to just be greatful for the here and now that we felt was a gift. Now that he is gone and Im feeling so empty its hard to not do the "what if" thing again. I have to try and remember all the amazing gifts Dan has brought to my life and be thankful that we never took each other for granted. We crammed more memories and amazing times into our 10 months then anyone I know. From birthdays, christmas,valentines day,concerts,vacations,visits with our amazing families ,romantic dinners out, to a dance in the living room at halftime of the Grey cup. For all these reasons and many more I will try my very hardest to not live in the world of "what if" and always try to be greatful for life and all its gifts. I LOVE you Dan and always will!!!!! xo Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Create an account or sign in to comment
You need to be a member in order to leave a comment
Create an account
Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!Register a new account
Already have an account? Sign in here.Sign In Now