Emunah Posted January 29, 2014 Report Share Posted January 29, 2014 Friends, I recently discovered this site, and have been blessed to read many encouraging posts. It is profoundly encouraging to experience the bereaved supporting the bereaved. Thank you. I am in my early twenties and my fiance passed away at the end of this past June. I was aware he had a terminal illness before we started dating; yet, I defied my higher faculties falling serendipitously in love with this sagacious young man, whose body was ravaged by a lifetime of consecutive illnesses. We were an unlikely pair to behold. I toward a lanky eleven inches over him. He, with a twinkle in his eye and a wry smile, would inform me that, "You are the muscles of the relationship, but I have the broad emotional shoulders", and so he did.Trying to describe my fiance, would be as futile as attempting to bottle sunlight or measure a mother's love. We had nine glorious months together. 42 weeks too few. He needed a second double-lung transplant, but his body eventually succumbed to the infections that had gone septic. I naively hoped my love could fix his broken body; that The Powers That Be would acknowledge our love, and prolong the snipping of that fine golden thread. The Fates were not amenable, and I was haphazardly confronted by the deafening scream of silence. And unwillingly ushered into the presence of the additional face of Joy; that unsavory and repugnant countenance, marred by disillusion and pain. Oh Joy, you inevitable via dolorosa. "But, this I call to mind and therefore I have Hope..." How does one begin to think about the future in the wake of the shattered remnants of a future that was deeply desired but will never be? Thank you for your time. Sincerely, Emunah Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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