sinc86 Posted July 2, 2014 Report Share Posted July 2, 2014 A couple of weeks ago I was told by a 'friend' of mine that I was going backwards and needed help. Well, ever since then, she will send me text messages that tell me all about what she's doing that she's so busy or that she's not feeling well, or whatever. To me, obviously she is holding me at bay - is how I'm feeling. By the way - she lives 3 doors down from me. Reality is - I really don't care if she and I ever talk again. Because a conversation with her would put me in the defense mode....which is my greatest outward weakness in this journey. But I find her texts simply annoying. Anyway - why do people do stuff like this? Basically pass judgement on another *like they care* and walk away never to return? Do they not get that it DOESN'T HELP?!??! Is it too harsh to write something back, that I know she's busy and so am I - - she doesn't have to explain herself? How do I write that in a politically correct way? Meanwhile - on to HOW I AM DOING.....Last week I got a new electric piano and playing piano has always been soothing for me. I sit down and play it when I feel the need and it does help me. Last week the first time I sat down with it - I played the old hymns that I knew growing up and that my parents loved. I cried all the way through my dad's favorite hymn. I also talked to my *new* pastor and we had a very good conversation. Church and devotions have always been a part of my life, and a part I've fallen away from - - and the last few days I have sat down and done devotions and I have been so calm. It is a heck of a journey I'm on....but I'm doing what I can to get through it. Maybe none of this makes sense and maybe I shouldn't even write it on here....but that's what is on my mind today. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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