kayc Posted January 26, 2006 Report Share Posted January 26, 2006 At Christmas time I was asked to light the advent candle and speak on "love"...I thought, "Why me? Why would my pastor pick me to speak on a subject of which I feel so devoid?" Obviously, I chose a different "love" to speak about than the one George and I shared.Now Valentine's Day is approaching and I am being asked by my choir director to sing a solo on "love". Again I felt, "Why me? Why wouldn't they pick someone else, someone who hadn't just lost her Love?" I have filled my life as best as I can with new friends and activities and tried so hard to keep an upbeat attitude and smile...yet inside a part of me is still raw and burning with pain and emptiness, a lonliness that misses my husband. I don't even want to attend the valentine's banquet...it's something George and I always did together. He was so good to remember me on Valentine's Day, my birthday, Christmas, and every day inbetween. He was my biggest fan, and I his. I can't listen to barbershop quartets sing love songs and watch other happy couples exchanging glances and holding hands. It's just too hard. How are the rest of you handling these situations? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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