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That is a really great idea I am going to look into getting an ornament made

Ckoeppel, I also meant to tell you that I am sorry that your daughter was so harsh like that. Is it possible she is jealous of the bond you shared with Ruby? My older son, hes only 8, used to get so mad that Princess wouldnt ever lay with him on the couch. He would tell my husband " she only lays with mom". At the time I thought it was funny but I see now I was the one that had the strongest bond with her.

I am so grateful to have found this group. I dont say anything to my children about princess's spirit as I think they are too young to understand (3 and 8 years old). Ckoeppel I think you and I were the ones that our babies chose to have the strongest bond with. We are their mothers basically so its as if we have lost a child. Our families dont understand because they didnt have a bond as strong as ours. I will definately hang her stocking with the rest this year (and every year) and am glad to know I am not alone. While my family at home isn't grieving the same, my siblings understand. My one brother and my sister went through the same when they lost their dogs and my other brother cried when talking about when they day comes for his (his are same age as Princess). I love coming on here and being able to be honest about my grieving and know that I am not alone. Thank you all!

I know. I am glad that he isn'tsuffering the way I am. Nobody wants that for their child. One of my biggest fears was how my children would react to the loss of her. I am glad that they have adjusted well but I feel like I'm suffering alone. I dread the day that I pull out the Christmas decorations and see her stocking. Would it be strange if I still hung it up with ours?

Tonight was so hard for me. I broke down crying was laying on the ground smelling the rug where Princess used to lay. I miss her so much. Earlier my son saw a picture of her was like 'oh I forgot about Princess'. It absolutely crushed me because I think about her constantly. I know hes only 8 and didn't mean it like that, but I am so upset and would give anything to hold her one last time. It has been one month and 2 days since shes been gone I just pray this starts to get better.

I am the same! I literally just told her to come lay on the couch with me. I feel a lot of comfort knowing that there is someone else out there who is going through the same thing. Others may think I am crazy but she is with me all the time!

How are doing? I still think about Princess constantly, talk to her and look at pictures daily. We have surveillance cameras and today the screen from the one on our backyard looked like her face. And it was right where she used to lay. I loved it!

I know its easier said than done, but just cherish every moment with your dog. I only had 2 days between the time I found out my dog was terminal and the day I had to take her in. I cherished every moment, took lots of pics and gave her tons of love. I always felt like she would be with me forever (even though I knew that wasnt possible). This board and wonderful people helped me so much through the grieving process. Focus on the positive, your dog will sense you worrying. Good luck!

Yes, I live in a city but even the surrounding suburbs dont allow it. Thanks for that I will have to look that up

I honestly would have loved to bury her in my backyard in her favorite spot to lay. Unfortunately it's against our local laws. Plus if I ever move she can come with us.

It went ok, I didnt see all these responses because I didnt see there was a second page. When i got them I was upset and cried then came home to my husband and finally saw him show some emotion over our loss. My 3 year old told me dont cry Princess is in heaven. That was so sweet and made me feel a tad better. I put some in my urn pendant necklace so she is always with me. I am also going to have jewelry made with some ashes. I dont feel comfortable scattering them because I feel like her favorite place to be was with me. Thanks so much for all the support! Hugs to all of you!?

I have to go pick up her ashes today and I feel like this is all hitting me hard again. It makes it all seem so final. Im glad that she'll at least be home, but I feel like she died all over again. Did you feel like this at all?

Awww, now that I think of that Princess was sort of distant the last day and a half. I thought she was mad at me and in pain from the surgery, but maybe she just knew. I feel better knowing that. I also smell her sometimes too, they were out babies and theyre trying to comfort us. I honestly though I was going crazy until I read your story, Im glad that I had someone to share my story with. I tried looking into the owl symbolism but like you couldnt really find a straight answer. Im sure it had to be positive because what worse could happen at this point right? Everytime I see an animal come close or do something out of the ordinary I think its Princess. So maybe it was your sweet Ruby saying hello.

You are definately not crazy will all those things. Your sweet Ruby is trying to comfort you. Right after I let Princess go to heaven, I pulled over in a park to cry. I was talking to my best friend on the phone and this squirrel was sitting on a bench staring at me. I know it was Princess letting me know she was ok. Then another squirrel came and they started playing (i think my moms dog). Then a third came and was watching them play. My best friend said that was her son, who passed at 17 months old. They are all together and happy. The other day I was laying down on my couch after taking my son to school. My husband went to work and my stepson and youngest son were sleeping. I felt someone get off the couch and walk to kitchen, then heard a bag rustle in the kitchen. I thought nothing of it until I got up and saw everyone was sleeping. I think Princess was laying with me to bring me comfort. Her food bag is still in the kitchen. I still cry, I am still devastated but I am starting to cope a little better. I feel like I am the only one who is grieving in my house. I still havent got her ashes back yet, but I bought a necklace with a vile for ashes and also plan on having the jewelry made. I look at her pictures and talk to her every day. I put her bed and food dishes away but I miss her so much. I am sure our pets are playing together, glad that we have found some comfort sharing our stories on this site. Hugs to you.

I was just wondering how you are doing? Have you found anything that is helping for you or giving you comfort?

I am so sorry to hear how much loss you are sufferimg from. That is so much for one person. I hope you find comfort on here

Thank you, the vet said she had less than a month to live( at time of surgery).She had a bunch of fluid drained during surgery that was coming back only 2 days later. I just didnt want to have her start having worse problems over holiday weekend. I would never had forgave myself if she suffered when she didnt have to. I just pray that this starts to get easier. Thank you all for your replies, I am so glad to have found this site.

Thank you

I had to put my 10 year old pitbull Princess to rest 9/1/16. She was the perfect dog for me and I miss her so much. Every night I cry myself to sleep, and when I wake up I cry again. It is so hard for me to accept that she is gone. I want to share the story of her life and hope it helps me. I got her when she was only 3 weeks old. She was from a not so nice part of town, being a pitbull it was better if I took her so young. I bottle fed her and even got up in the middle of the night to feed her. She truly was my first baby. Once old enough she got her shots and everything a puppy needs. One time my husband was walking her and I was sitting in the car about to go to the store. She shook her head to get her collar off and jumped through the car window into my lap. She was just the best most lovable dog! On 8/25 i took her to the vet, she was losing weight and starting to have difficulty walking. During the exam he found swollen lymph nodes, a mass on breast and thought she may have pyometra. Bloodwork was consistent with pyometra along with her excessive thirst. He put her on an antibiotic and scheduled surgery. 8/29 she went in to remove uterus and biopsy mass. However once she was open there was a large tumor behind the stomach that the vet said was inoperable. He gave me the option to allow her not to wake up. I said absolutely not I want her home. I brought her home that evening and showered her with love. The next day she seemed pretty good. She was eating and walking around. The day after that she would not eat. I made the tough decision to let her go after one bad day. I loved her too much to allow her to have many tough days before making a choice. I KNOW that I made the right choice but am constantly doubting myself. The vet even told me it was the right time. So 9/1/16 only 1 week from the initial vet appt I allowed my baby to go to heaven. While Im glad it all happened quick so she didn't suffer, I am having such a hard time coming to terms with it. I lost my best friend, companion and part of the family. My kids seem to be over it but I cant imagine how I will ever be okay with it. I know my husband is suffering too, just in his own way. I am so devastated, depressed and would give up almost anything to have her back. Any thoughts on how I can start to heal would be much appreciated.

Thank you i found some comfort knowing that someone out there feels just like I do. I hope it helps to know that you're not alone . I found this site after reading a book on the loss of a pet. I hope it can help us both to begin the healing process

You have every right to feel that way. Family should stick together and support each other. It is normal to be angry at our loved ones that left us. My best friend swears that making a scrap book of happy memories helps with the grief

I am so sorry for your loss .My dog was just put to rest 9/1 for having a large tumor. The vet told me without testing that it was cancer (yours probably thought the same) . Bloodwork and large lymph nodes also pointed to that. You didnt allow your baby to suffer. Your baby lived a fulfilling life right until the end. I praise you for making the tough choice early. You did the right thing, your vet should have discussed things with you as well.

I had to put my beloved Princess (a 10 yr old Pitbull) to rest this past thurs (9/1/16) so I am feeling the same as you. My dog was losing weight and drinking a lot of water. The vet said she had pyometra and needed to be spayed ASAP. So i took her in mon 8/29 for surgery. Once on the table he saw there was a huge tumor behind stomach and wanted to not allow her to wake up. I said absolutely not! I brought Princess home that evening and gave her all the love she deserved. The day after surgery she was good and eating but the day after she wouldnt eat. I took her in 9/1 to be put to rest. The hardest thing I have ever done. I am new to this site and sorry to post my story as a reply to yours. I just want you to know that someone else out there is feeling the same grief and pain. I also cry everyday while my family seems fine. I am depressed and feel like a part of me is gone. Just last night I put her dog tag on my necklace, it gave me a bit of comfort. I hope you start feeling better, our dogs might be playing together.