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About Widowedbysuicide

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    I'm Marita

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    Vancouver Island, BC. Canada
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    Animals, fabrics, sewing and quilting.

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  • Date of Death
    january 5/16
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  1. You are kind Gwen. I certainly hope your life will be improving soon.
  2. Widowedbysuicide

    I really miss Butch

    Today I am revisiting this thread because I do still miss Butch. I am praying that he and his heavenly family are watching over Katie, the darling to come and the boys. None of us will ever really know what caused Butch and Allen to leave the earth in the way they did but I know they loved their family here on earth. I hope they know they are not judged; that we here in this family are doing what we can to encourage, guide, and provide our loving support to Katie. And, I hope that they are able to help Katie during this very difficult time of grief.
  3. Widowedbysuicide

    It still hurts so bad

    Mitch I am sorry for your recent agony. Your love for Tammy is wonderful. I know you wish she could be here to share your love and to return it. I believe she knows you still love her. You write so clearly from your heart and it is truly awesome to read your love story. I don't believe the story is over. There has to be more to come. Selfishly I wish I could read or hear my husband tell me that he loves me. I will never stop loving him and remembering all of the great things we did together.
  4. Gwen I hope you keep telling the staff and your therapist about your suicidal thoughts. All of us have had similar thoughts at different times in our lives but something has helped to crush the thoughts. I believe it is very difficult to break that kind of thinking on your own, particularly when you are so alone. I pray that this hospital stay will cause an improvement to your life and that you will find some joy on earth. ❤️ 🙏
  5. Widowedbysuicide

    My Allen

    ❤️ 🙏. You are in my thoughts and my heart.
  6. Widowedbysuicide

    A gift.

    That is really lovely Katie. You are brave. Allen was brave for quite a while too. I remember the feeling like it was yesterday in one moment and a lifetime ago in the next moment. It i still like that for me now. Fortunately I have learned some coping skills so the fluctuations aren't as difficult as they were. Every day is different. I'm just so sorry you have so many loved ones you are grieving. I believe that makes it much more devastating and difficult. Hugs and prayers 🙏 ❤️
  7. Widowedbysuicide

    My Allen

    Your words are so beautiful Katie. They speak of such sadness and love. I believe Allen knows what you want him to know. He loves you still, just from a different place. ❤️ To you
  8. Widowedbysuicide

    Significant Quotes

    So true. Life and death are harsh sometimes.
  9. Widowedbysuicide

    My Allen

    @RahnVery nicely said. I hope you too will be ok someday Ron. I have been on the train ride of depression and anxiety for more than half my 61 years. Sorry for your recent loss as well. I remember how desperate feeling those first month's were.
  10. Widowedbysuicide

    My Son was shot by his best friend

    I'm just checking in to see how you are doing. I know how hard it is to answer that question. I mean that from the time you think about the question you have felt so many things and thought about even more.
  11. Keeping you in my prayers. I miss smoking... Last one was April 15, 1992
  12. Widowedbysuicide

    My Allen

    Just wanted to say hi to you Katie. ❤️
  13. Widowedbysuicide

    My Allen

    Katie you don't need to worry about all that. Right now you are in survival mode and that is enough. There are times when you just have to live one breath at a time. I like to ask this question: what would you say to your best friend if he/she was saying what you have written? I bet you would be gentle and kind to them. Queens what.... that's just what you need for you. Be your best friend to you. I think it is easy to comment on things once they have become more the 'new normal'. Give yourself plenty of time, patience and love. ❤️🙏🏾 I'm here for you.
  14. All I can say is that I am genuinely sorry that there is so much sadness and difficulty in so may of our lives. 🙏
  15. Widowedbysuicide

    My Allen

    🙏 for you on this difficult day. I understand how you are concerned for your children. Mine was 29 at the time of his Dad's suicide and it worried me sleepless for many nights.