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About Widowedbysuicide

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    I'm Marita

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  • Your relationship to the individual who died
  • Date of Death
    january 5/16
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  • Location (city, state)
    Vancouver Island, BC. Canada
  • Interests
    Animals, fabrics, sewing and quilting.

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  1. Widowedbysuicide

    Emotional Break.

    Hugs to you dear Katie.
  2. Widowedbysuicide

    Changes I'm Making

    I love your thoughts here Anne. You have a great heart and mind. All I have to do is think I am worth the effort now. Today was 3 years since the colour left my life. Missing my man terribly.
  3. Widowedbysuicide

    Tired Of Being Strong

    My heart hurts for you Ana. I can feel the pain in your words. If I could find a way to help you I surely would. i have a difficult time with New Year's Eve as well. My husband proposed to me Dec 31, 1979 and it was a huge surprise. I was 22 then and now I'm 61. Much has changed since Jan 5th 2016. I will be thinking of you on New Year's Eve and hoping for the beginning of healing in your heart.
  4. I'm very sorry for your loss. I'm glad you found your way here and I hope you will find what you need being here.
  5. To all of you who are overwhelmed with life tasks and doing it all alone, I feel for you. My secret right now is I'm pretending that everything is ok. I seem to be the go-to person these days. Once again my friend and hubby are in Arizona and I'm house and animal sitting. I've been at it since the 18th of November. They are planing to be home mid February. All the worst dates for me. Good wishes for everyone.
  6. Widowedbysuicide

    My Allen

    Hi Katie ❤️🙏. I wish I could help. Please know you are in my heart and my prayers. Frustration buster - A teacher friend told me that when she was up to her eyes in frustration or other feelings she would go to a second hand store or garage sale and buy dishes. Particularly the large plates. When she felt in the mood she would go out to her sidewalk and smash the dishes one item at a time, savouring the sounds, feelings, and sight. When she felt better it was easy to clean up and she was good until the next time. - just a thought 😲
  7. Thank you for the information Karen. I was aware of the Hopi but now I will research it better. I have friends in Arizona right now. They are their with their horses at an area where they do a lot of roping. I believe they are near Casa Grande. I'm looking after their house and animals here. 3 horses and a cat is all I have this year. In past years it's been up to 7 horses and two dogs along with the old barn cat. I hope you had sunshine today and that some comfort found its way into your heart.
  8. Karen you mentioned Kachinas. Are these sport dolls? My much loved mare who is gone now was named Kachina De Chelly. I was told her name meant spirit of the canyon De Chelly. She was my support through troubled and painful times. I'm interested in learning more about Kachinas. I miss her terribly. I had to have her euthanized in September '17.
  9. Widowedbysuicide

    Simultaneous Grief and Love

    I am thrilled for you Maryann! Thank you for sharing your wonderful news with us ❤️
  10. I understand what you are saying and I know how much it hurts. I wish it wasn't like this. 🙏
  11. Widowedbysuicide

    Articles Worth Reading

    Thank you for this post. It will help me and my son too. ❤️ I am going to print it out and keep it on my fridge.
  12. Widowedbysuicide

    My Allen

    I hope you all will be feeling better soon. I don't remember strep throat but i do remember ear aches. Sorry for you all. Each special occasion is difficult after a loss ❤️. I am thinking you have too many family not at the table with you and my heart knows your heart is still really breaking. I pray for you that you will accept God's love.