Flowers: I am so sorry to read of the loss of your dear husband. Even though it has been a year ago, the loss of your husband is still very real and is no wonder you feel as if you have no joy in your life. Only you will know when the time is right to move out the hospital bed. It was your loss of someone very special and it is your choice how you deal with the grief. You did not mention if you had children, or family to help you through this grief. I just know from my experience, I have found much support from members of this forum. I hope you will continue to be a part of the Forum. Like James stated, we are all different and from different parts of the country with different experiences, but we all understand what you are feeling.
James, I am saddened to read your father in law passed away. I can't begin to find the right words to ease your pain. I do remember reading your posts how much you loved and respected him. My thoughts are with you.
Dee