jeanneapril Posted September 28, 2020 Report Share Posted September 28, 2020 Today around 00.30 midnight. I accidentally killed my Oreo. I did rescued a total of 8 kittens that I found on the streets. I lost 4 of them due to fading kitten syndrom. One week ago, my youngest kitten got sick and weak. So I was trying so hard to give every kitten I have the nourishment and vitamins they need. And I did focus only on the youngest. Giving her first some food before the other ones that is already healthy. Then, while I was trying to distract the other 3 kittens and 1 adult cat and trying to lead to our garden so that they can have their snack there without disturbing the little one. It happens so fast and I accidentally step on one of my surviver cat, Oreo. I panicked when I realized what just happened. I picked him up, and the blood was already everywhere. I came in and ask my friend for some help. After some minute. My kitten was already gone. I saw how my dog was trying to bark on my kitten and the look of the other kittens too. I was trying so hard to buried my kitten but I couldn't. I am devastated, guilty, and my mind couldn't stop mesmerizing all the memories I have with Oreo. He is my survivor and I am deeply sorry that I did took his life with a tragic death. I cant stop crying because this is the first time I got blood in my hands. That I am the one who took my beloved childs life. (every pet I have is already my child) I feel that I am on the edge of being traumatized of this accident. My kittens and I loves to be on garden and I dont know if I can still able to finished fixing it, with the thought that my kitten died there. I really do need a honest advice. Can you please help me? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MartyT Posted September 29, 2020 Report Share Posted September 29, 2020 My dear, I'm so sorry this happened to you and your kitten, but clearly this was a tragic accident. You did not set out to bring harm to this little creature you loved so much. Sadly, though, you are only human, and accidents do happen ~ and I know that you would give anything to turn back the clock and change the ending of this horrible story. I encourage you to read through so many of the threads you will find in this forum, which I hope will help you to see that you are not alone. See also these articles, including those that are listed at the base of each: Loss and The Burden of Guilt Guilt and Regret In Grief A Dangerous Villain: GuiltPet Loss: When Guilt Overshadows Grief Pet Loss: When Guilt Goes Unresolved Memorializing Pets We Have Lost 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted September 29, 2020 Report Share Posted September 29, 2020 I am so sorry for your loss. Marty has listed several good articles, I hope you will read them and take what they have to say to heart. Here is another one I like: http://www.pet-loss.net/guilt.shtml 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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