kayc Posted April 11, 2008 Report Share Posted April 11, 2008 Last night I was thinking about George, and I felt an overwhelming sense of love coming from him, it was inside of me and all through me, it was stronger than I have ever felt before, and I started crying and crying. I thought about getting up and going on line here, but instead I just sat there and felt it. I had been talking with my son about my acceptance of my current marriage, that it's not what I had hoped for or what we had talked about and that I have come to the realization that he didn't have a great need for me in his life, that he is comfortable being alone and that it is a very real possibility that we may never live together, and that he may love me in a limited capacity but is basically self-centered and a loner, and while that is okay, I wish I had known that before we married because I had been painted a very different picture than what is. I have accepted what is and don't expect it will ever be different. But I also know that I was loved once and I was lucky enough to have at least had that, for however brief a time in my life it was. It was then that I was flooded with love, and I believe it was George somehow letting me know that he still loves me and always will and I carry that inside of me. That love gives me strength and comfort and it is of great consolation knowing that I am still loved, no matter how my life goes, no one can ever take that from me. Someday my ashes will be scattered where his are...I know that is not us, yet it is symbolic of our remaining together, our spirits will be reunited wherever they go. I don't know if this is of any consolation to anyone or not, but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that our loved ones are not gone, and our love remains forever.KayC Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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