dpodesta Posted June 16, 2008 Report Share Posted June 16, 2008 Hello all,I am lying awake here at 2 am in the morning before I have to leave on a 2-week business trip. I have been watching TV and things are hitting close to home. It has been over 2 years now and sometimes I still can't believe this has happened. I have been having mixed emotions about going on this trip. One the one side it is a break. I haven't had a long break from my son. I had a few days last year because of business but nothing this long. One the other side I know how much my son needs me since he lost his mom. But I find it hard to be there for him. Raising a son is supposed to be with 2 people not one. He wants me to do things with him and I try at times but a lot of time I just want to do what I need to do. I have been selfish the last couple of years and lately I have been seeing more and more that I need to spend more time with him. This evening I realizied just how much I miss Karen. How much I miss having a complete family. I have come close to tears the last couple of days and I wonder if I truly have dealt with the loss of Karen. I hate nights like this where you want to talk to someone and it being so late there is no one to call. At least I have this forum to come to and my friends that are here and understand. Thanks for listeningLove alwaysDerek Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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