moparlicious Posted August 18, 2010 Report Share Posted August 18, 2010 Hi all my name is Kim for those of you who don't know me and those that do. I have not been on in a very long time do to ongoing problems, today I would like to share my story with you and hope my journey in this unforseen road makes some difference. My story begins on July 21, 2006 when my husband of 20 years Dan got cancer. He was 41 years old when he died and we have 3 children together, we were together since high school. Dan began throwing up and getting sick everyday, he was complaining of stomach pain and cramps, then I found a huge black looking cyst on his inner thigh, I finally was able to get him to the DR. and they keep insisting it was acid reflux disease gave us countless medications, procedures but he was not getting any better. On this date in July I had to drag him to the er and got the fatal news that Dan had stage 4 esphogal cancer. After sobbing and panic we deceided to go ahead with chemo. Dan was very ill and weak at this time and did not respond well to the first round, after 20 days in the hospital we finally got to go home and continue doing outpatient chemotherapy. Over the next 9 months Dan was hospitalized 17 times for at least a week at a time, then came some small miracle and Dan began to make vast improvement the Dr.'s were amazed and very hopeful. In may 0f 07 Dan had his first seizure, Dr.'s told us it was nothing, till June came another we then found out the cancer has spread to his brain.We tried surgery and radiation. I will never forget Dan looking and calling for me prior to going in for his brain surgery, just holding his hand and telling how much I love him will forever remain in my heart. Sadly Dan lost his brave and gallant fight August 20, 2007 in the loving care of Hospice of the Valley, what a bunch of caring and compassionate people. They took care of Dan and our family for 3 months. This facility provided the most amazing and loving care in the whole world, I truly believe everyone there are angels, for I would not have made it this far without everyone of them!!!! When I found this site I was on all the time, I have found great friendship and many many warm hearts. I love this site and want each of you to know I love every one of you and thank you for the love and support. Dan will never get to see his grandchildren grow up (when we have some) and he has missed out on our youngest graduating from high school, but he will forever remain in our hearts. Although we do not understand why we all have to go through this. The pain lonleness breaks your heart in no way anyone can ever understand. This journey we are on and have been given has had so many roller coaster moments for me and to think that was and is normal made me laugh. I am no expert or professional in anyway, in fact I am just a nobody who has lost her soul mate and true love. This Friday will be 3 years since Dan's body has left this earth, but his spirit remains around us always. I smell him when the wind blows, feel his tears when it rains, feel his heart radiate through the shining sun. My hearts breaks for all us to endure this pain. But, remember you are not alone for there is always someone on here 24 7 who will listen, care and love no matter what the situation. I am always checking my e mail and if anyone would like to write me you may do so. I am sorry to keep seeing so many neewbies on here. God Bless you all Kim Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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