redwind30 Posted October 16, 2010 Report Share Posted October 16, 2010 It has almost been six months since I lost my husband. The pain seems to be worse today than it was the day that it happened; I didn't think that could be possible, but it sure feels like it. It is another Saturday and I feel so lonely I can't stand it. Try to keep myself busy doing chores around the house, but I feel like "what is the point"? I don't want to go anywhere. I know if I just keep going to work and coming home and doing nothing else my life will never change. Yet, there is no one to do anything with. I am only 51; I don't have any family here, so friends are all I have and they are all involved in their own families. Doing things with kids, grandkids, spouses etc. I hate going places alone; I guess a more accurate statement is I hate leaving home and coming back to an empty house. When I do go out I get sad when I see all of the other couples and families. It breaks my heart when I see a couple holding hands; because he ALWAYS held my hand when we went anywhere. Or, I think about how enjoyable the experience wuold be if he were here with me. He had some health problems that were not related to the cancer during his last year, so we did not get to get out and do very much. So now, the few times that I have been out and done something all I can think about is what we missed out on. Life is so unfair! And, back to my original statement; if I keep staying home I will never have any kind of life; yet it hurts too darn much to go out. So, what am I suppose to do? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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