sunstreet Posted November 29, 2010 Report Share Posted November 29, 2010 Well, I did it, I went to a benefit concert last night. It was so moving, and so exhilirating, and I felt Melissa right there with me, I felt her smiling knowing that I am at last going on with my life. I never thought I would ever be able to do something again, that Melissa and I always did together. I believe we still did it together, she was just not there with me in body, but she was there with me in spirit. Melissa and I were both so very passionate about supporting causes that provided education on abuse and mental health. I felt my heart alive again as I sat there and watched. I did not feel guilty for enjoying myself. My thinking of late is that the greatest honour I can give to the love we shared is to go forth in the world as I would have done if Melissa were still here. This was the first social event that I went to since Melissa's death. It felt so right and I felt Melissa so close to me. It was perfect! The concert was called Shadow to Light, and basically was a story about a young woman's journey with a mental illness and the obstacles, the intolerance, the injustices she faced and had to overcome as she moved through the darkness and into the Light again. I also want to share two books with you all that I have found helpful. I have always felt God very near, as I believe He is the reason I am still here. After Melissa suicided though, I must admitt I went through a period where I was very angry with God, making statements like: Have I not been through enough? Why did you not help Melissa as you have helped me? In any event these books may help if you are having a difficult time believing in God and asking Him for help. If God is not your belief, I mean no disrespect. First book is: When GOD Winks: How the Power of Coincidence Guides Your Life. Second Book is: When GOD Winks at You: How GOD Speaks Directly to You Through the Power of Coincidence. The author is Squire Rushnell and they are both on amazon, I got mine at my local library. Apparently, he has another one titled New Beginnings and now I want to get that one too. I thank you all, I carry you all as I go through my days. We are here together. Blessings and Courage, Carol Ann Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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