martina Posted January 13, 2011 Report Share Posted January 13, 2011 Well, its been 23 days now since David passed on. As you know from my past posts its taken a toll on me,emotionally,mentally,physically, as im sure when your loves passed on, it did the same. The tears still fall, but its not as often as it was at the beginning.Im not drowning in them, and I feel im more able to swim to the surface now. I think Ive finally excepted that he's really,really gone. I fought agaisnt that in my mind, but my heart already knew it to be true. Its just been completely the most emotional and life altering experience of my life. Im not the same person as I was,and probaly never will be. I found now, that my sense of "being" is so finely tuned and extremely fragile. I know that a greater power resides in me that has helped me through all this,even though at times, im not aware its there. It is the force thats within, that clings to me and keeps me going, even when my feet feel like stone, and my eyes are blind with tears,it is the power that keeps me from total dispair. Without that power, I wouldnt have made it this far,and I know I have many more steps to go,but as long as its there,im going to be ok. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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