sharirouse Posted October 9, 2014 Report Share Posted October 9, 2014 I apologize for all of my recent posts, my mind just loves to race at night. I do cry over my dad and cry when I need to and all of that stuff internally but Im having issues letting myself do it publicly. Im afraid of making people feel awkward or placing my burden on them. and its getting to the point where I almost feel like I am doing the whole "woe is me" thing but holy crap Im sad! I still feel lost and empty. I know its only been a month and its going to be hard but what is wrong with me? My brother and I got into an argument after my dad passed, long story short he only started talking to my dad when he found out he had cancer and didnt even know I existed, but anyway, he almost tried to one up me and made me feel like my pain wasnt justified even though I was there for the passing. How do i get passed this? I have started telling myself aloud that my dad is gone. I needed to do that with his cancer but i never did so I am doing it now but how do I allow myself to be as sad as I need to be? I wanted to scream and shout and hit things when my dad passed but I never let myself because I almost felt like it wasnt acceptable. What is this? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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