Kat2005

Hi! I'm really sorry for your loss. My husband was on Social Security disability before he got sick. I too know the feeling when you receive the letter from Social Security that reads marriage ended in death. It is really hard words to hear. It has only been 4 months for me and I still consider myself married. I know that I am not but I am not ready to accept it. I have been told that things will get better. I try to take one day at a time. Some are good but most are bad. I do journal every night and that ends my day on a high note. I tell my husband about my day and how much I love and miss him. It is really a good feeling. I am new to this site but I know I have found people that will help me thru this because they really understand. My thought and prayers are with you! Kat

I have been going to group therapy and it has help somewhat. I am seriously considering going to a one on one also. A friend that has gone through a similar experience opted for one on one and they said it helped tremendously.

Thank you so much for responding. Your kind words have helped me. I think this is a good place to be. I think I will get alot of help with this terrible journey I am on.

It will be 4 months this week that I lost my husband of 25 years. We met at work and worked our entire lives together. We were together all the time. I have lost my best friend. He was diagnosed with a very aggressive cancer September 2008. I didn't realize that it was so aggressive and that I would only have 9 months with him. I am second guessing myself. I keep asking myself if I should have noticed signs earlier. Could I have gotten him to the doctor sooner. I just feel like I have failed him in some way. I keep wondering if I told him everything that I wanted to since I thought we had more time. I think of him from the time I get up in the morning till I go to bed at night.