I am new here on this forum. My name is Dwayne and on February 25 2011 I my wife of 33 years lost her battle with MS, (MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS), She went into end stage MS and it took her really fast. We are both deeply Christian and I know she will be waiting for me in Gods Kingdom for me. When she pasted I not only lost my best friend, my soul mate, my wife, I also lost my job. I had worked one job for 27 years, She had a PCA that worked in the mornings and I took care of her for the rest of the day. Her PCA told Pauline the day before Thanksgiving that it was her last day. After interviewing about 20 people none was a fit for my wife. I came home from work and found Pauline on the floor. The next morning I went to work and told them I had to quite to take care of my wife. God provided for us, I became her PCA. I trust in the Lords guidance. Pauline's best friend and her husband goes to the same church we went to. They came over and prayed with us, for God to give me the strength to go through this, and for Pauline not to suffer. Pauline went on hospice on February the 5 2011. 3 weeks later she pasted away, The last 2 weeks with the help of hospice she was the most pain free she had been for years. I gave her all her med's for years. After she passed I decided I wanted to make a difference in peoples lives. I will be starting nursing school in July. By having to take care of Pauline for so many years I found out I was good at doing that job. I really it is the Lord guiding me on the rest of my journey through life. The loss of Pauline is worse thing in my life. Days I don't even want to get up, but I do because I know she is watching after me. I feel her all around me. There has not been a day goes by that I don't cry for her.Over the last 2 1/2 years when things looked really bad for us The Lord always came through for us with help from places you would never except it to come from. I pray every day for him to give me the strength to get though the day. So keep the chin up and just take one step at a time and God will help you through this very hard time. See I know God has plans for all of us because 33 years ago, me being born and raised in Colorado and Pauline born and raised in Fall River Massachusetts, he brought us together on a rainy day in May in a small town in the middle of Kansas, It was like we had known each other forever. With Pauline I have experienced the best day of my life and the worst day of my life February 25 2011 at 2:30 PM. I told Pauline I would be alright and I know you are tiered and it is alright to go to sleep, and I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY BEING, her mouth moved I LOVE YOU TOO. Then she was taken into the LORD'S KINGDOM. So now my life starts anew prayer works and is real because he gave me the strength to help Pauline to go through the end of her life the way she wanted to be home in bed in her favorite nightgown with me by her side. I hope and pray my story gives other people her to go on with their new life, and feel comfort that God has you in his hand and will never let you down.
God Bless
Dwayne