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Thank you Lexilou, hand in hand, and for being here for me, I'm not real tech savvy, on top of that I had to get another phone bc old one wouldn't hold a charge, now this new fangeled job, nightmare.....! When I find some relief I will go to Marty and see what I can or cannot do. Still yet it's hard to function being without her, she was my confidant, and best friend. I miss her so much. Have a merciful day!

I have this new phone and I can't get notifications. I'm in tears I'm so lost I'm scared.

Hi Lexilou I'm doing terrible, I'm so alone I miss her and it's breaking my heart I'm having panic attacks back to back I'm crying excessively, I don't think I can go on.

No they aren't like that anymore, it's really sad.

Very hard to accept it is how vets can be so cruel and dishonest! I have found they are very dishonest. They are gougers, they could have found her diabetes years ago if theyed had done a simple panel and not wanting boo coo bucks for unnecessary blood work, that I knew was unnecessary, but failed to tell me of a reasonable panel. At the end I found out, I grabbed the boocoo bucks paper and ask what's this , on one line it was a simple blood panel ,they could have done, I said what's this!, do it, by then it was too late.it sickens me.they are gougers. They think it's just an animal and you can get another one, they for the most part are heartless and un sympathetic. I'm so sorry kayc, I know what you are feeling and we dont do anything but blame ourselves,so unfair, bc it's all we feel we can do bc our heart is broken bc we didn't save them, when vets are suppose to be more specialized in such matters, Such matters of the heart they could give a rats a**.

Hi Lexi, thanks I've been asking for a honey bee. The next morning after HER passing I look out of the window there was a honey bee stuck on the window, I thought it was dead for the longest time, all of a sudden it's wing's started fluttering, I said is that you Buttercup, did you just get your wings? I've been asking for a honey bee, this morning one flew into my hand it crawled through my fingers, my hand and then flew on my face it crawled up to my right eye, it stayed there for a time feeling and then disappeared, I didn't see it fly away it was just gone. I pray that was her visiting me and letting me know that she's ok. I miss her so much Lexi tears, Im torn up inside. Hugs❤️

Well said Marty....

Yes put the report in go after him with all you got, do the best you can do, I know it's difficult but otherwise there will be other animals that are at risk.

I'm so sorry for your loss, it's so hard and I don't understand how these vetenerians can be so incompetent. I know exactly what you mean when you say she came into your life to save you, and now you are broken AGAIN! It's tremendous.I have a magnet on my car that says who rescued who, I haven't the heart to take it off. She loved to ride, one day when the car was in the shop and were staying with an x friend, she looked all over for the car. I assured her its just needed work and our home will be home soon. We lived in our car, you notice I said our car for 10yrs. and we were attached to the hip my best friend, my soul mate. I'm devastated by how I let her go, but I didn't want her suffering. A vet over vaccinated her and she ended up with tumors, then she had diabetes that took her down.Im having regrets not pursuing treatment but I didn't want her to suffer anymore. Living in our car we didn't suffer sure it was rough at times but we had each other, it was like when we'd move into an apartment she would mope until we went for a ride. The car was her first home and she loved it, we were so close. I'm so lonely and it isn't the same in the car, but I can't part with it either bc it was her home it was a part of her. I miss her so much. I hope your issues are better, I don't know what they are,but I truly believe she helped you in so many ways, and that you can be thankful for. She's with you and spirit and she will continue to care for you and be beside you. I know it hurts, I'm feeling it every minute of the day. Please stay here, I need you too Leila. Lots of love ❤️I'm so sorry.....

You are so kind kayc, I'm new on this this site ya know and I'm not the best at tech and this is a new phone I do not like upgrade they call it, down grade for me. Haha I'm sorry for your losses and glad you have a new puppy, you are a strong woman I commend you, this world is terrible and at this time we need no more disaster but we get them back to back would you agree, I don't want to promote negativity, ok I'm just sad lonely and mad at the world right now, I miss my Buttercup so much Everytime I say her name I brake down and cry. I well others thought you can get a another dog you know the tale, I hated hearing that it just angered me, but I couldn't right now. I'm hoping Buttercup is happy and in a safe place. Do you believe in signs, I just got one...

Think of you too huggs❤️

That's I can imagine and I'm so sorry, I am here as well as others I'm so thankful I found this site, bc what hit me yesterday, I think maybe I found it purposely, if that makes any sense.

Oh my God I just now understood the part about the boxes I read it 3 times it's hard right now, I'm so very sorry for your baby, it was a freak accident and I can't imagine what you must be going through , it wasn't your fault, but she knew you had all the love in your heart for her and she loves you. I'm so sorry..I hope your holding up, I know how devastated you feel right now. She was a lot of fun wasn't she. It's a world of debilitating events, I don't understand why it keeps beating us down, it makes no sense.

I miss her Lexi I can't deal with this, she was my joy, I think of our memories but now im hating myself for letting her go she was very sick but I should have tried harder what have I done, will this guilt I'm going through ever pass. What have I done!

TY I will look for that book I can function I can't eat I hardly sleep I'm in such deep sorrow my stomach feels nausea all the time. I shake im having panic attacks back to back. I love her so much I let her down I just know it how can I ever forgive myself .

We had such fun together, I wake up and hug her urn evevy morning you know I'm in tears right now, I should have done more for her, I just do want to go on why is God so cruel why doesn't he understand that I needed her in my life. I don't have anyone to care for now, God is cruel I don't feel her spirit it seems I'm hollow I'm a shell and a killer. I miss her so much why can't I feel her spirit. I see her in my head but I'm lost without her. I don't hear her, I can't touch her. Where is she.....

GM Lexi, thank you I'm so sorry for your loss of Lexi, I'm so hurt I feel like I let her down, she was the love of my life, I don't understand why God seems so cruel, bc her just doesn't seem to be there when you need him the most. I'm so lost without her. I let her down.

Oh Kay, I killed her, I can't live with this.

I killed her I didn't try hard enough im so guilty, we had such a hard life but I didn't try to save her, she had tumors and her diabetes skyrocketed to 700 over night but I didn't try to save her I should have the vets seemed so negative I look at this now why didn't I try I miss her so much I'm so afraid of how she thinks of me now does she love me I want to die and be with her. I didn't want her suffering but I should have tried I hate myself .

I'm so sorry, your hurt, and I know your anger I went through the same thing and a vet they kept her in fear. I just lost my baby girl bc I don't trust vets and I didn't want her going through anymore pain. I feel so guilty for letting her go. I'm torn up inside. I'm so try, the pain is unbearable, I don't eat sleeping is horrible and days are hell. I don't want to go on. I know the brothers are greiving, you all have my deepest sympathy.

Lexilou what have I done should I have tried harder to save her I feel like I've killed my baby what have I done, I thought about her age and her sickness, the vet said her diabetes was real bad. But I should have tried I killed her I just know it.

Someone please if it's not too late can you talk to me please I feel like I killed her. I thought about her age I thought about so many things what have I done

I'm sorry again but I've been so honest with you should I have tried harder to save her, should I have, I miss her s much I'm feeling like I should have tried the treatments what have I done of God what have I done

Thank you Marty I know it's getting late, yes I don't know if it is a different kind of loss, but it seems like a more longing loss to me,.I really don't have the answers I just know I miss her big brown eyes, and all of her. She was so sweet, perfect in all ways.