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dear GAIL IM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS .IT HAS BEEN 9 MONTHS FOR ME AND I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL .HAVING KIDS TO LOOK AFTER WILL KEEP YOU GOING.ILIVE FAR AWAY IN GREECE AND HAVING NO SOPPORT HERE IFOUND AGREAT HELP FRM THIS SITE .CONECTING WITH PEOPLE THAT ARE GOING THROUHG THE SAME PAIN HELPS A LOT .IDONT REALY KNOW WHY GOD SEPARATES LOVING COUPLES .I KEEP ASKING EVERY DAY .I WISH YOU FIND SOME STRENGTH. TENY

THANK YOU for all replys William Patti Kayc Derek .I feel that I have friends that can understand my broken hart and life .I replyed to Marty ihope that she will read it.

MRTY THANK you for your reply .Your voice of experiance is a great confort.Im going to a therapist once aweek there are no support groups in Athens for grief. Iv changed 2 therapists untill now IV read a lot of books more than 10.I can not find any confort . I think that loss of such love can only heal with love tha no more exsists .One month before he died he told me that he prayed to God to get him well He was sure as he told me that GOd would answer his prayers because God gave him something more dificult He gave him my love fo 40 years.Yiani believed that he will make it We met and got maried when I was 18 HE got cancer and as soon as wefound out he was gone within 10 days.How can Itake on line courses on grief? Im not so advaced in technology. TENY

Hello my far away friends Imiss you all.It has been quiet lately.Ihope you are dealing with grief.Im steel having ahard time.During the night isuffer alot.Im constatly yearning for my YIANY Imiss him so derribly and Iwish icould be with him.I some times feel I can make it and then agreat wave of sorrow and desparation comes and heats me again.THERE ARE TIMES I CAN NOT BREATHE.How can it be true WE were so in love how can igo on without love/?Life is so emty. I have not yet find the courage to visite his grave.I dont know if I can ever go.I keep telling myself that he is away for along trip and he will come back to me.I cant stop crying. TENY

HI my far away friends I just dont know if IM doing the right thing or IM diging painfull memories.MY eldest son is coming with his fammily. for the weekend at our summer house.Our house ment to be for the 2 of us aplace to spend the rest of our lives.The only life left is my lonely life that I steel dont believe is ment to be without Yianny.Every day gets harder to go on and my children are sad for me that Idont recover .HOW can any of us recover when love that was joy of life is gone/?How can you stop tears all the time how you can not be angry looking at other happy couples when destiny seprates you from the only one tha was your reason for being happy?I try to find meanig and each time Iwake up and realise that he is not there tosay good morning my joy of live it drives me crasy.. .In greece we have a way of mesuring time >.Time that can be measured by clock and time that goes on without counting that time is keros.Maybe keros will take care of us. THAnk you all, TENY

HI Im Teny from greece .I just read about the book .Im feeling sad and lonely and I cant see a life waiting to live and enjoy .I only cry cry cry .Iwould like to find the book in greece .Can i order from the net?If you have any information please contact me.THANK YOU My far away friends.

So much pain in this site so much sufering .I wish we gould all be closer and meet some day so tha we support eachother .Only people who suffer the same pain can understand. Im sorry for your loss 40 YEARS OF LOVE.I have been 40 years with my husband worked together so hard thinking that will have time to retire and be together in the age that children go away and you need your spouse more.What are gods plans ikeep asking no answer today is our engagement anniversary Im left behindto suffer alone.I also have agrandauter 14 but sometimes ifeel Idont careMy happines was Yianni and our love the whole wrld colapsed with him gone .Some of you say it will get easier >Reading what DEBORAH wrote I cant see any easiar pain I pray for him to help me Iknow he loved me and does not wany me to suffer. I also know that if i was first to go he would suffer great pain. i just dont want to thing of his beautiful blue eyes crying. THANK you for being there .............THIS site helps more than my doctor.DOCTORS seem to think that we should move and go on.IT IS SO HARD.

thank you all for being there you are all a great suport MY friends got tired of my grief I feel isolated. YIANI has been the center of my life.

it has been 8 months hrd to believe and go on .I went to visit the new doctor .He is anice man and advised me to ceep a diary of my every day feelings I did not do much of talking Iv spend the counceling time crying.MY son told me today that im angry with life .IM desperate with with life that is left for me to be alone I weel tray to go tommorow to our dreams summer house I dont know if i will stay or run away.Nightmares are chasing me .I mss his voice imiss his hug imiss heskiss imiss our LOVE. Please forgive my english .Ihope you understand. TENY

karen ican understand the way you feel Im not in abetter mood but i just want you to know that i think of all of you sufering the same pain . teny

I had to go back to the hospital where YIANI died. My sister in law had complications with her chronic health problem. I thought iwould not make it .My feet were trembling and my heart was going crasy.All bad memories came back as if it was yesterday that he was gone.Imiss him so very mutch. Ifeel so jelouse of couples that are together and dont apresiate.Summer is here and all of YIANIS friends are enjoing the sun and sea why he had to go? IM so lonely without his love and his beautiful blue eyes looking at me and telling me every day ILOVE YOU. teny I

I khow how you feel .Weekends are so hard. I miss my life together .It is sohard for all of us .And yes SHELL time gets very strange THANKS TENY.

THANK YOU HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN FOR YOU ? TENY

life goes on but idont feel part of it .Im astranger watchig days go by.Some people say that god has areason why things happen. I cant understand why iwas left alone and God did not answer my prayers I was so deeply in love and YIanni such aloving person>There are days I have no gourage to be part of life without him by my side life is emty.In july Im starting counceling with a new doctor .My hope is that he will be more support .Thank you for answering my tears TENY. I

Reading every word made me cry It is truehopes dreams and all life shared has gone so did friends that cant share the pain .I hope that find confort in your prayers TENY

it felt good to read what you wrote today .Icant recall good memories I miss him miss the life of 4o years together.THE only memories ihave are of the last 10 days of his life The end that came so suden .Yes we cant change the past But what about lonely future?I hope you feel better and keep good memories. Teny

I have 2 boys and are your age Lorikelly . but as you say icant go on for any one for the moment and yes greece is beautiful .I was seeing adoctor but was not what i needed She kept telling me that people have to face harder problems and they go throu them Im seeing a new one today WILLIAM |m taking meds sothat ican sleep Panic attacks are coming during the day I had never in the past this problems .My life was happy and complete I lost yianni and everything that ment life for me his love afection protection his wisdo m .HE was my first and only love. THANK YOU ALL> TENY

AS time goes by grief is even stronger .ALL that love became adeep sorow . I can not believe it is true Music hurts our house hurts and it is a reminding that he is away looking at every corner he is nowere and everywere .Will i ever find gourage to go on? may be idont care to .Life is emty.

the beautiful greek summer is here .The sun the see the light .I jstcan not unterstand why Yiani had to go..WE loved and enjoy this season so much Ican not go back to the summer house memories of happy days are all over .I cannot believe its all gone I miss him so much now that friends think i must be OK WAVES of grief and tears arae over my head my body my soul hope you understand my english thanks for being there Avoise from far away Teny .

dear friend from far away i will think of you and wish you stregth thank you for being there and .You gave me comfort. JUNE is hard for me but for other reasons that iweel tell another day .the best for you teny

IM so sorry for your loss I can understand how much you miss your wife .I lost my husband of liver cancer but we did not even have the chance to say goodby He was gon in 1o days We were also 40 years together and in love I know that when you love so deeple 40 is just abreath you always wish for more I hope you find stregth it is conforting to express emotions I do try to express mine from far away and feel there are people who understand teny

weekend is once again coming and also tears dont go away I have feelings of despair and im so lonly without him.HOW can i go on?Do irealy have to?Today I find no reason. Is any of you far away found the stregth ?

thank you all for being there and feel my pain .It hurts every day and I miss him every moment, I try to keep busy that realy helps I have a ceramics workshop and it is a creative work .WHEN the night coms and the weekend the pain gets stroger .Yiani was my first and only love .I was 18 and he 29 when we maried .He was so good looking like agreek god with blue eyes .WE were in love .We use to take long drives holding hands and talk alot .Every morning he would say to me good morning my joy of life . Im left with no life without him .

i frgot to say i live in greece so i am faraway from all of you

7 months ago ilost my husbant yiani he was my evrything ifind my self lost in a world without him my feelings for my children and grandchildren are frozen .there are moments of panic how can igo on .we have sold our house planing to retire in our summer house that he loved so mush .ican not go back to that house alone evry thing went so fast ican not beleave it is real died of liver cancer in 10 days without previous symtoms. please excuse my english i try to comunicate the best i can i wish i could exspres my feelings better ineed help thank you for beeing there