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HI JANN I LOST HUSBAND YIANY AND I WAS ALSO MARRIED 44 YEARS IM YOUR AGE AND SUFFER ALOT. IWISH YOU FIND GOURAGE WITH YOUR THERAPIST AND LET ME KNOW. TENY

HI MY FRIENDS.THANK YOU.KID KIDDO IT SOUNDS SO GOOD TENDER WORDS FROM MY FAR AWAY FRIENDS .I wish I GOULD EXPRES LIKE YOU BOB WENDY DEBORAH KAY ANNIE TERESA WILLIAM CORRINE.AS ABOUT ANTIDEPRESAANTS I GAVE IT ATRY AND I GOT SO NERVOUS IT WAS HELL.TOMOROW IM GOING TO AN OMIOPATH HOPING FOR SOME HELP.BOB YOUR WORDS GIVE ME ALOT TOTHNK ABOUT.YOU ARE YUNGER THEN ME BUT I THINK MORE OF LONELY EXPERIANCE.LOVE GIVES HAPPINES BUT WHEN IT GOES THE WOUND IS SOOO BIG. TENY THANK YOU KARENB YOU ARE ALWAYS BY MY NET SIDE AND ANSWERING MY POST THANK YOU LORI HOW ARE YOU DOING /? THANK YOU ROSANNE FOR YOUR WORDS OF CONFORT TENY

DEAR FRIENDS. thank you all for answering .My doctor says I have to take some andidepressands I dont think that it is a help for my lost love.Reading your words of support make me feel that some far away friends d care and pray for me.I know your stories .I could not find any post of yours BOB YES my husband and I were very close full of love and as you say I have no friends HE was my best friendWE were together since I was 18 The one and only in my life.I always was scared of this moment of loossing him and uor life together .Fasing know the reality does only hurt sooo much.THANK YOU >TENY

Hi my friends It is almost ayear since YIANy died I only use the word died when I post .It is soo hard to believe.He comes to my dreams I try To hug him and he stands with no answers for me he does not put his arms around me even in my dreams.My friends and family think that Ishould be over it but for me it is getting harder especialy this time of the year that we spend our last days together in a hospital room Regrets quilt memories and my heart is copletely broken My children have their lives and I feel no reason to go on living and suffering.In the first few months I had hope tha it will get easier .Looking at myself now the stranger tha Iam Iknow its getting harder.Living so far away from all of you asking for support is like trying to get answer from heaven.THANK YOU TENY

WENDY everything you wrote it could be my feelings as as well .I just feel I cant go on and then Iwake up to face another lonely day with no dreams that it willever get better.Im not even sure that my children need me.They have their familys and life to live what is the use of a crying mother? teny

Wendy Ijust want you to know that reading your post could be my feelings as well I also feel alone scared and vulnerable. hugs from far away. TENY

HI MIKE Im so sorry that you are suffering a loss in such ayoung age.I live in greece so I think Im so far away but finding this place gave me alot of courage.AS Wendy said I knew who I was with Yiany.It hurts at any age .You dit not have a life together and no dreams come true.Im old enough to be your mother but grief has no age .I do hope you will in the future find happines again You do have future and life to live .I have to apologise for my poor english I have more tosay if I could expres myself beter. TENY

Erica I was just posting when Isaw yours if Icould expres myself in english better my words would be the same.I have grown up kids that they dont need me so much.My reason for living was the great love for YIany.As you say please god have mercy.I think of you from far away. TENY

I just need to say hellow and feel that some of my far away friends understand my deep grief.This time of the year every memory hurts.It was 9 of this month that YIany felt the first pain.Liver cancer had atack his body and our lifes.Less than a month later he was gone.Sunday I went to our summer house .Every part of the house is the memory of life that does not exists.When it got drark I could not stay .I could not stop crying feeling cold and upset stomach.Driving to my brothers home crying all theway Ifelt my life has no meening and going on without him is a torture. TENY

Mrcelloboy In 29 days it is going to be 1 year for me loosing YIANY .As you say there is a lot of pain shared in these forums .In Greece we say that shared pain is half and shared happiness double .So it is good to post both feelings There is a lot of sunshine inGreece also but yet I can not find happiness. I do miss him more and more Thank you for your positive thinking it is so good to know.AS i can realise you must be young and have life and future to go on.My best wishes to you from far away. TENY

thank you my friends for replying.Thank you MAYLISSA for geting in the truble to find the meenings for me.I will try to find in thedictionary the Greek explanation.Im so sorry that Im poor in eglish words to say how grateful I feel for your support. TENY

Dusky thank you for your words today As you know I live in greece and Im so sorry that my english is poor so I cant expres my feelings but as you do I read every day the pain that all of you go through .Strager to go on Ifeel loosing Yiany the one and only love of my life. Keep posting your words are so full of emotion. TENY

annie Im so sorry for your loss.YOU have been a support for me and thank you .I hope you find confort and as I remember you do have a family and kids.The love of your family will give you strength.I know it hurts .My love from far awy .TENY

I was with Yiany at the movies wacthing the film love story. He was holding me and asked me do you remember our love story?We did not have enough time to enjoy.Now you have to take care of our youngest son.Look at him. I saw my son standing and Yiany told meCan you see what is carvedon earth infrond of him?I saw aheart a circle and a square.I woke up in panic and tears.What is the meening? TENY

HI my far away friends .Every word you post today gould be my feelings as well.It is so hard and the weekends are geding lonely and so like time is long.I just MISS HIM.Today is 11 months. TENY

[Derrec I have a grandson age 10.When Yiany died he went wild .HE did not belieave his grandpa was gone he was telling us that he is every night in the garden talking to him He did not go to scool for weeks and coming home he would go to make sure that his father was alive.kids react in strange way and Im sure tha loosing a mother is adeep wound for achild.Doing things like you deskibe I think he is trying to have your atension.It must be hard on you having to face your grief and taking care of your litle one.I wish you find strength.TENY

THANK you my friends for being there Reading all the posts and your feelings I can feel Im not alone in that terible pain.Iv been through the feelings each of you describes.the desperation and hope .Is there any ?Some of you say it is some are desperate as I am.Love hurts.and lost love hurts more. HUGS FROM GREECE TENY

YIANY was telling me I love you I will never leave you.I will always be with you .He left and I can not feel him anywere .I want to dream of him and have some answers .Why did that happen? How cancer can kill in 1 months time? Last september he was alive and enjoing the end of summer swimming long distance.Im going crazy thinking .that he is dead.Weekend is here and it is so hard to be alone. TENY

WaltC I know how you feel .My happiness of 40 years is gone.Next month it is 1 year without Yiany.Pain is over me day and night.I wish you can find some confort .Please post and give some hope. TENY

I have thought of that so many times.Your support is my every day help.When you saw my site you gave me gourage to go on with my work but as you know Im realy far away.I try to imagine all of my friends faces and give and take a thank you hug.Thank you lori TENY

Lori Iam born in Greece and live in asuburb of Athens Greece and as you can understand my english is very basic Thanks for answering my post TENY

Karenb Derek Corinne Lorikelly Kayc THANK YOU .Some of you are asking if I have a support group .I dont cause I did not find one in Athens .I go to a phygolog once a week.Karenb I do work.I have a ceramics workshop you can visit my website www.teny.gr Working is the only thing that helps but YIANY and I we were together also in work He had all the difficult part runing around to the banks doing all the finance paying bills etc.He was always admiring my creative part and engouraging me.with love.I miss him at work I miss him from my life. My son is now runing YIANYS part as well as his own.Things are difficult. He also griefs for his father .We all miss him so much. TENY

Last night I had a dream .I was in a cage with iron bars around and no door.The cage was in a garden I was crying and sufering and then Isaw Yianys hands holding stong 2bars and I heard voice telling me .I dont know how to help your suffering and he was trying to take away the iron .I wanted to look at his face and hold his hands but Icould not .I woke up crying and realising once again that he is gone. TENY

Kay c you always answer my posts and thank you for the card Brighter tomorrow.IT is now that I need tohold on ahope because grief is makes me feel I can not breathe.I just can not go on without his love and support and it is like no time has gone by. My sister in law is in the hospital and I gould not visit today .Keep praying for me and please keep sending hope TENY

THANK YOU MY FRIENDS PLEASE KEEP PRAYING IFEEL SO TIRED AND STRESS I CAN NOT FEEL THERE IS A FUTURE .INEED YOUR FAR AWAY WORDS OF SUPPORT. THANK YOU TENY