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Well Iknow you are all sleeping but for me it is noon.If any of you can post I do need help .MY family are all spending tonight in partys celebrating the coming year.I just dont know what is good for me Icant go with them celebrating and IM loosing my mind to beeing alone and only cry.Feeling that nothing good is coming for the coming year only grief and pain so feeling this way I dought that is worth living.Pain tears fear and lonlines are my company.Will it ever end? TENY

HI I like to believe that our heart can love others enjoy and explore new things.may that be a wish for the coming Year.Thanks Bob .TENY

SUZANNE IM so sorry you have this great pain Im also in despair .Christmas is over but its hard facing new year .IM going to be alone new years eve I dont want to go to partys and I can not be among people celebrating .I will miss his arms and kisses looking at other couples having each other.As Wendy said I was also with my husband since 18 no life before no life after.Do we have any choice? I hope it gets better for you .IM soo far away and thinking of all of you.TENY

Good news are always welcome.Im happy for you.New life new hope.TENY

Hellow my friends .I know its hard for all of you .Reading some of todays posts I found out that most of you made it throuh this days because of faith.I realy need to have it but I just douht justice and faith and all I respect is GODS power over us If that power is ruling us how cn we escape our destiny ? How can I not be afraid of the coming days alone/? Having not faith I have no were to ask for help.Some days Im so desperate looking at myself with no life to hope and pain is geting stronger.A year before in the begining of this jurney I had some hope that time heals today I feel that time makes the wound deeper.THank you for beeing here for me.TENY

HI my friends .Since last summer I have found support and understanding but I realy wish that I could have each of you close and in happy moments of our lifes.Thank you all for replying my posts and sharing my deep pain.As I once wrote in Greece we say that shared happines is double and shared sorow is half.This is a hard time of the year .I do wish for each of you that next year will bring any possible confort and relief.TENY

KAREN you are so much of support to all of us .Does it realy get better my friend? I also feel so tired and miss him soo much .Holidays are hard and going on is hard.My son told me today ,<oh my sweet mamy what can I do for you? and then he replied to his own qwestion.<just be as you are mom but please be with us.TENY

I was so desperate when I started reading todays post.It did not help not finding any positive message but in a way I found that im not the only one loosing my mind.Holidays are hard and wish you all strength and more hope for the coming year.TENY

Im very sorry for your mother.In Greece we say tragedy is welcome only if it comes once and alone.For you like in anciend tragedies it came to hit you double.Im thinking of you and wish you strength .hugs from far away TENY

thank you karen its 8 in the evening for me Im going to my sons home Im tired to drive but Icant stay alone.Your support is precius.TENY

Hi my friends I know that holidays are hard for every one here.This morning I was helping a girl to find a gift from my collection and I heard the song YESTERDAY .I just could not go on tears came that did not stop.I asked my niece to help with the pacage and I went at the garden to pull myself together.Felt like my life is aburden on my shoulders.No matter how I try grief is hiting harder.It seems like more pills Itake more tears find their way .My therapist told me that he feels that he can not get through to me its like I have built a wall and what ever he says I doubt.That is true I duobt him Idoubt God I doubt myself.Feeling tired with no strength.I just dont want to exist if Im not able to realy live.THANK you for being here TENY

Terasa Im so sorry for your loss.I lost my husband 1 year ago from lung and liver cancer .He went in 10 days after we found out No time to say good by .Reading about your father and all his suffering I thing that for a man like him it was difficult to strugle.I only can tell you that I do understand and know there is no answer to WHY and allyour suffering .Thinking of you from far away.TENY

THANK you my friends .It was good to be with us again WALT.some months ago your goodby was a disappointment cause it felt like this site was not of any help.CORRINE im taking the pills for about 3 weeks.ART IM having a bad time cause on top of my great loss my mother had a hip fracture.She is almost 90 and she has to stay in bed imobilized.I dont have the courage to look after her and she told my friend that I hate her because she is alive and YIany is gone.Yesterday coming back from my counceling I almost had an accident a girl riding a motobike did not stop at the red trafik light and I almost hit her I was in shok I could not drive the car I called ataxi and went to my sons home and spend the night.My son and daughter in law were arguing and I felt not welcome.Today reading your answers gave me courage.It is good to know that there are people who realy understand.TENY

I do understand my sister inlaw says that carbs sweets pasts are confort foods that is why we go for them when we are in stress.Gi ve it time and may be you will return to old good habits that realy keep you well.TENY

A year ago when I started this journey I had a hope by time passing it would be easier The pain groes stonger and I miss Yiany and my life .All I do is work .Feeling exhausted and fatige I dont find ways to handle myself.I take homeopath pills for depression but I see no progress.It seems that many of you have more gourage and strength .Will I ever find a way of living? Will I ever start to love my kids and grand kids the way I did? Are my days going to be worth living? I need all the help of you my far away friends.Thank you TENY

ART Hellow from far away.I just can understand the feeling but I do know it does not help.Bitter angry hurt jealous desparate are my every day feelings .We have totry not to compare our lifes with other people because there is no end at it.Yesterday I was at my sons home his inlaws are my age have each other decorated their home go to partys and have fun and I could not help myself having bitter thoughts and this hudge WHY.Why me why you Art why all of us here? Holidays are hard and my wishes to all of you that it will hurt less next year. TENY

HI from far away I just dont even think about holiday decoration trees and allthe joy that goes with it.Desperate without him.TENY

HI my friends this is a big problem for me also .3 months before YIANY was gone we have sold our house and had plans to live in our summer house by the sea.I have been since then a refuge running from one place to another.I have no home.It hurts so much to be in the isolatet summer home all by myself in a place we both loved and spend happy days that are gone forever .I keep moving from my brothers home to my sons .I know its crazy but I cant decide what to do with my life.In a way if I had stay in the house it would be easier so what some ofyou are doing by decorating and staying is a good choice.I like to have your advice for my case.Time goes by and some days feeling better and then like abig wave hits and Im under the water again not be able to breath. TENY

HI BOB I just wonder if you were alone having lunch in that nice restaurant you are describing.?I realy admire your positive way of thinking.That must give you alot of strength and a way to belieave that life and future are waiting for you .Keep strong my friend. TENY

It is 13 months today and my life is so unstable.As you may remember 2 months before YIANY was gone we have sold our home for an appartement buildlng.We had decided to live in our summer house by the sea .It is the house we were spending our weekends and we both loved.Since he is gone I did not have the courage to live in an isolated summer ressort alone.Until I could decide what to do I started like a fugitive spent my nights eather at brothers house or at my sons I wonderwithmyself >I used to have every thing in order and did not like to change places .Now I cant stay in the same place and keep running like a fugitive from one place to another.Its like my destiny is chasing me. TENY

HI GAIL Life sure is not what we thought it would be .So many broken dreams and it hurts so much when you see couples holding hands and no arms around you .There are times when I realise the tragedy I wonder how Im still alive.Holidays are so depressing trying to work alot so I dont feel the time I fully understand every word you say I wish there is help and hope TENY

HI my friends today as you did with me send our thoughts to BOB.Hoping that you will go through the day with your possitive thinking and give your self gourage the way you do for us.For better days .TENY

Thank you all fof being with your thoughts with me .It was a very cold evening .The wedding took place at a tiny church by the sea. We were only 20 people just family.The bride in a long ofwhite dress with a green ribbon aruond her waist .In Greek tradition we give a small litle pot with sugar coated almonts .Iv made them for them decorated with litle ceramik pomegranates and green ribbons.I wish I could give one to each of you my friends .Pomegranades are acording to our tradition good luck and fertulity.It is strange but yesterday was realy the first time that I truly realised that YIANY is gone for ever.Wathching my sonI saw a lot of his father in him .Good looking tall broad shoulders only YIANYS blue eyes were missing I miss him terrible and was so sorry for not sharlng the happinessof the moment. When the ceremony was over and went back to the emty house lonlyness came along A friend told me that fammily is like a chain when a ring is gone every thing falls apart.I have fallen apart but the rest of the chain is going on with new rings.TENY

THANK YOU SOO MUCH> It was a nice and only family wedding .I felt brave that I did not let tears flow emotions bitter sweat .My son was so happy and when I kiised him he told MOM YOU HAVE TO BE WELL so I can be happy myself.TODAY I cant stop crying .I feel your far awy love and support .Thank you allIwill post more when tears go away. TENY

HI my friends once more every word i read today fro your posts about mediums IS ALL GREEK TO ME.WHAT is this all about?.I cant understand. Please send me your strong thouts for tommorow I need support for being alone at my sons wedding.TENY