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NO BOB I did not have the luxury to be prepared. Yiany had no symtoms. just a pain and as soon as we went to the hospital in afew days he lost contact and he was gone .Liver cancer.Whenever we tried to talk about this matter he would tell me dont worry il be here for you and when he realised that he was sick he told that he is going to be cured cause GOD is on his side and the poroof is that GOD gave him my love .It does not get any better THe 29th our son is getting married and il be standing alone in church without sharing our sons happy day.THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT AND REPLY TENY ART YES im a christian but the TV program I cant find cause I live far away in Greece.ALso I do feel that GOd or whatever the power is that rules our lifes has given up with me THANKS for your support TENY SUZANNE Im trying hard to feel his presence without suxes all I end up is why?THANK you TENY LYN THANK you for giving me some hope.TENY

another sunday is here Im working to set up the shop for the season.I keep thinking the way we were and I can not stop crying .Last year I had some hope that in 1 year I could feel alitle relief but its geting harder as time goes by I miss him more.I just want to end the torture.I feel so lonely and yearn for his love.Every night Igo to bed trying to get some sleep pils dont help and Im soo tired.is that normal? How we are going to go throu the holidays?Does any of you feel the same emty no reason to live ? TENY

GAIL Im sorry you are having athis hard time.I feel every word say.My therapist told me that thegood life I had is my treasure .I only know that life has gone and treasure is what hurts .As many of you my friends I did not have to kiss alot of frogs to find my prince.My prince was my first and only love.Its strange for some of you but realy love grows.When our children left the house the 2 of us had a life more close together and being in love like a new start.Depending on each other dreaming that we could be more relaxed after so many years of work Work is the only thing left for me.Survival day by day.Friends family no one can heal my broken heart.The holiday season when people must be happy and full of joy I wish to vanish and I know that all of you feel the same WHY? BOB I like the way you think I read the advise you gave to gail about the oportunity to find the person she is I feel my identity is not separate frm Yiany I realy dont know who I am.I wish my eglish was better so I can expres clear.TENY

hi my friends .today its monday and beeing back to work feels better.Thank you for your reply.Some days the pain is so deep that I dont want ny life.I feel emty and I just cant face the reality that YIANY is gone I dont have his arms his smile his love his support his kiss and all the energy I had from his love.I will not go on cause I started crying and I have to go to work.TENY

Another weekend is here sad and rainy.Im looking some old photos of happy times his beautiful face and keep crying and asking why .IM spending the weekend with my mother.I hate to say that I think this is not fare.Loosing YIANY and my mother is almost 90 and giving me a hard time trying to control my life Whenever I want to be alone she will not let me .I have to take care of her and that makes me feel that I cant take a breath.Each day i miss him more and more .Now that Im sending this post feeling desparate its raining and I just cant stop crying What is lifes worth like this? TENY

HI my friends reading every word and feeling makes my pai double.There are days that I feel I dont want to go on life is so emty without him and as WEndy says I cant find who I am since I WAs with Yiany when I was 18.Im surprised that I can not give love to my children and grandchildren all I knew is the way I loved him. and as the song goes did he know how much I loved him? I knew the way he loved me and realy miss him sooo much.TENY

Just to say that Im thinking of you today.It is a rainy and sad day in Athens I wish you find strength.TENY

HI Its good to know its getting better I wish that Icould join you to the meetlng.Im thinking of you and thank you for your replys and your support.Keep strong.TENY

Hi Art Im far away living in GREECE but feelings and pain are the same all over the world.I lost my husband 1 year ago and every night I wake up feeling emty lonely and just not believe that us 2 has left only me to suffer.I ask WHY we were so in love and the center of my life was that relation.I was 18 when we married.I know that you feel punished and you also ask WHY .I cant find answers .Holidays are hard.All friends inthis site do understand and we try to support each other.TENY

thank you my friends It is 2 weeks that I take the meds.Im having trouble sleeping.I take pills but during the night I wake up and miss him sooo much TThis feeling of emtyness will never go away.Trying to be busy keeps the day going with no meening another day without love.TENY

Hi my friends another weekend went by and left me steps behind.the new meds are not helping and I find myself desperate not able to sleep thinking all over the life that is gone feeling tired no energy and most of all people around are telling me that Ishould be over it by now .As days go by I feel more lonely my life with no meening .Holidays are close and I did not get the shop ready yet.I know I have to do it and I keep findig excuses for not beeing ready.My therapist told me that if I dont help myself I will soone go and find YIANY .I do need help and advise.Is any hope for geting easier? Thank you TENY

HI DEREK .I.hope you feel better and found a solution with your little one.You feel you have to much on you for your age but having to look for someone who needs you that must keep you going.having carson both of you can make a house feel like a home again.I wish I had someone to look after and feel another breath by me.All this stuf about shoping in a mall or on line it is all greek for me! It is a rainy afternoon saturday lonely and all of my friends that do understand far away.Take care of your self hugs from Greece TENY.

Derek Karenb Susanne Corinne Bob Gail Griskz Kayc Deborah Wendy.Thank you for being here for me .Counting your names I realise that I do have my far away friends support.I followed some of your advise and Im spending the day with my grand children and stay with them tonight.Bob I found the site but dont understand about the videos.I do apreciate your way of thinging but it is difficult tofollow and shake away negative thoughts.Im stuk with all Ilost and cry over and over saying goodby to the life I knew.My doctor told me to start group therapy and IL do so next month.Im taking some herbal meds that not help for the moment.THANK YOU ALL TENY

Hellow my friends today it is my wedding anniversary.I just can not find words to say how much it hurts.Im so desparate will it ever get easier or I have to folow him soon?Noo meaning.just pain.TENY

Hi I dont visit this site but as I read the posts of children that lost parents and realise how much it hurts I try to find a reason of living .Most of the time Ifeel so depressed that Idont want my life without my husband .I do love my boys but my heart is emty without my love.I wonder if I go will my children hurt the way I do.Reading your pain I try to find currage to keep going.TENY

unfortunatly we are a lot of us suffering.For me faith has gone away and only why took its place.Last week was 1 year this coming frday it is our weding anniversary.Holdays are close and I also feel I want to go for along sleep and maybe not to get up to face my loss.Im sorry for all of you.TENY

HI my friends its so lonely when friday is here I try to be more in my studio and make some new things for the season.I have been to an omiopath doctor and gave me new meds I did not try them yet.Im so depresset that new ideas are not coming and I need them for my work.Thank you for beeing here for me.TENY

Yesterday I went to YIANYS grave for the first time since last year .It is 1 year I cant believe he is there.IT was like someone else not me not Teny that was there and not in his arms telling me how much he loves me .I have asket some of you to pray for me for strength.I must tell you that when my son started crying telling me O MAM you thing HE is waching Ifeel so sorry for you to be so lonely without dad.I felt that I had some of you telling me that IM also a MOM and I gave himm abig hug and we kept crying together.My young son did not come.Thank you for keeping me in your minds. I felt relief that I made it.Today Ifeel so tired and grief is so stong.Where did my life go?One year without his love that was my power for living for my creative work for being the person I am.I was18 when we got married and so in love until the d ay he died sowith no symtoms.Hard to go on.YIANY is the Greek name for JOHN TENY

Hi Art Im sorry Ihave to say hi this way and for the reason you are here .I lost my husband 1 year ago today.It is so hard >Finding this place help alot I live in greece but every one here make me feel close .I wish you find support and make this derible loss easier. TENY

Please please my far away friends pray for me Im going tommorow to his grave .My eldest son is comming my yung son told he can not face it .I do wish some of you were with me you do understand the pain?Will I find the gourage?I think Im loosing my mind.TENY

Bob, Thank you I do like the way of your posting I know Im to poor with english to expres myself .Some answers I have love from my children mother and brother it not the same love I had from YIANY and not the same Igave him.

Thank you my friends .I just want to stick with you cayse I dont want to give more pain to my children .Remember what happened last week when my sons girl lost the baby she was expecting? they have a lot pain. November 2 is a year and I cant decide if I have the courage to go to YIANYS grave Iv never been since the funeral maybe I have to face it.I wish as you say that I can help some of you but my english is so poor I cant say what I feel.Thank you does noy include all my feelings.Bob thank you for you post it is true that today you saved my sanity going back ayear drives me crazy.Some answers.I have love from my children mother brother.It not the same loveYIANY gave me and the same as I gave him and yeshe was the only person who understand meand was my other half .This is ahard time and finding all of support from your posts helps alot. TENY

It is going to be 1 year next week. I try to remember the way I was when I had all his love and care.Life is so emty no meening without love.It has been told that GOD has plans for us I dont understand why he ordered this life for me for all of us suffering It is geting harder and hurts so much more when I realise that I have to go alone.Do I want alife without love?

HI jann this post could be mine Please let me know what your therapist told you about your feelings I also feel angry that YIANNY leftme he was aways telling me Dont worry Im here for you.TENY

HI my friends 2 days ago my jungest son told me he was going to get married and his girl was expekting a baby .A light of hope for a life in future .For the first tume in11 months I had somthing to hope again .Next morning we went t look for a wedding dress.The same afternoon she went to visit her doctor.My son celled me in tears the baby was dead.Yesterday I was in the hospital and every hope vanished.Grief is strong back .My son needs help as I heard YIANYtelling me in my dream and I am in panic asI was last year the same time YIANY was in hospital for his last days.How can I go on? Why is God letting us down?Please help . TENY