Maylissa Posted April 10, 2006 Report Share Posted April 10, 2006 (edited) It's time for another rant! The longer I live, the more I'm really learning to despise, and thoroughly disbelieve that horrid cliche that God doesn't give you any more than you can handle at any one time. From reading others' stories, to my own microcosm of a life, I rage more and more over what I now consider to be one of the stupidest cliches I've ever heard. So many people have experienced tragedy upon tragedy, many it seems within days and hours of each event....and these poor people are going mental with anguish. And while my own difficult events often pale by comparison ( yah, I know we're not supposed to compare, but one can hardly help but use comparisons as gauges to one's own miseries! ), right now I feel, once again, like I've been given too much, all within a few days. What really strikes me about this stupid cliche is the twisted 'logic' of it. If you go through one thing/grief/loss/tragedy and survive it, this cliche says that the next event will likely or assuredly(?) be even worse/harder to handle than the last one!....cuz, whoopee, you've grown from the last horrid event and should be more capable of handling something even more distressing! Oh boy! Lots to look forward to then! What kind of incentive is THIS for all this supposed growth of one's soul?! Conversely then, if I don't recover well from the last sorrow, wouldn't that mean that I wouldn't be given something even harder to try to recover from the next time? That's how it looks to me, anyway. My particular grief/worry/consternation right now comes in the form of yet another physical illness or injury ( we're not positive yet which it really is ). Our fur-girl suddenly got blood in her iris one morning last week. We've been going through hell with the treatment this has required, but I thought we were making progress....so.....just 2 days after starting treatment, it got WORSE yet, after I'd had a titch of hope that by trying to act/be/handle things a little more calmly than my usual way, things would actually be better, as is suggested by all sorts of people. WRONG!!!! No, things went the other way.....and now I'm SO angry and feeling SO betrayed by this stupid way things are supposed to work, according to those who believe in this particular mantra. On top of that ( plus her high blood pressure and kidney failure ), her bladder also started acting up again this morning, just while I've been typing, so I had to restart yet another drug for her! All this seems to be doing to me in the end, is making me more numb to life, and that, surely, couldn't be considered a good thing. If this cliche is true, then if we're really smart, we all ought to throw in the towel NOW, before things get even uglier! I'm so MAD at the Universe, it's not funny!! Thanks, Universe, for bringing up even MORE fears than the ones I already had!PS If anyone would care to, any prayers for my Little Nis(sa) would be greatly appreciated, especially since mine are steeped in lots of doubt and fear right now. Edited April 10, 2006 by Maylissa Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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