LostnEmpty Posted June 19, 2009 Report Share Posted June 19, 2009 I can't believe it's been 4 months since Marc's death but it seems like I haven't seen him in forever. I can remember it so clearly- that dreadful day that changed me, my life and will change our baby girl's life forever. i also can't believe I will be giving birth to our girl in less than 9 days without him by my side to experience this joy. It will be such an emotional rollercoaster for me that day- actually it already has been but i know it will be worse that day. I am afraid not of the physical pain i will go through, but of the emotional pain that moment will bring. I have images in my head of what it will be like- I scream for Marc over and over but he is not there to hold my hand and to witness the birth of our Tabitha. I imagine when I have her and I am holding her for the first time i am crying of course and I tell her that I am so sorry her father has left this earth before he could meet her. That day will be so happy but also so sad, i just hope I can get through it because i have barely made it past these 4 months without him. I love and miss Marc so much that it drives me crazy and it hurts. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted June 19, 2009 Report Share Posted June 19, 2009 (((Talia))) I wish I could be there to give you a hug in person. Soon you will have your baby girl and although her father isn't here physically, I'm sure he'll be beaming with you when she's born. I'm sorry this is such a rough thing to go through.Kay Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LarrysGirl Posted June 19, 2009 Report Share Posted June 19, 2009 Talia, its so hard to know what to say to help you. You have a very happy time to look forward to, yet it will be a sad time too. Please try to take good care of yourself these last few days, you will make it through. We all here care for you and can't wait for you to hold your new daughter. Deborah Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kath Posted June 20, 2009 Report Share Posted June 20, 2009 Dear Talia,I, too, am sorry you have to face all this without Marc. My daughter was born shortly after my Grandma passed away. It would have been one of those times she would have just moved in and cared for us. Instead, all I could think of was the wonderful person my daughter would never know. But when the time came, and my sister was there, I could feel Grandma's hands work through her. Then, looking at my beautiful daughter, it was my Grandma's eyes looking back at me. I pray your baby wears Marc's eyes or nose or ears. She is a gift from him to you. Every time you look at her, you will be reminded of the wonderful man Marc was. Hold onto that and love her. He'll be there.Kath Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boo Mayhew Posted June 20, 2009 Report Share Posted June 20, 2009 Dear Talia I was wondering how you were. When is your due date?I too don't really know what to say to you if I am honest, because I cannot imagine it. But I do believe that Marc will live on in Tabitha and there will be times when you will cry because she will remind you so much of him, but more importantly I know there will be many more times when you will smile because she reminds you of him.I too believe that she is a gift from him to you xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LostnEmpty Posted June 21, 2009 Author Report Share Posted June 21, 2009 Thank you Kay, Deborah, Kath and Boo for listening to me and caring. Boo I am due June 29th but could go sooner according to my obstetrician. I know I will be happy when my baby is born and she has Marc's looks. I really do hope she looks a lot like him and I expect to have those moments when I will cry because I will see him in her. Tabitha will be a wonderful reminder of a wonderful man that I love so much and i am am lucky to have her- to have that part of Marc with me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boo Mayhew Posted June 21, 2009 Report Share Posted June 21, 2009 Talia, so you could be having Tabitha any day now!!!! Where HAS the time gone? I too feel as though I have not seen Cliff since forever, and then again it feels like yesterday. Time seems to behave differently since I lost him.Please let us know how you are, especially now. You may feel vulnerable but you are going to be a beautiful Mom and Marc will be so so proud of you, as we are. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gatorman Posted June 22, 2009 Report Share Posted June 22, 2009 I married late in llife because I was looking for the one. God blessed me with Cindy. My grandkids called me up tonight at 11pm and I was the happiest man in the world. The miracle that you are experiencing will come back to reward you. I wish you the best.Thank you Kay, Deborah, Kath and Boo for listening to me and caring. Boo I am due June 29th but could go sooner according to my obstetrician. I know I will be happy when my baby is born and she has Marc's looks. I really do hope she looks a lot like him and I expect to have those moments when I will cry because I will see him in her. Tabitha will be a wonderful reminder of a wonderful man that I love so much and i am am lucky to have her- to have that part of Marc with me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boo Mayhew Posted June 26, 2009 Report Share Posted June 26, 2009 3 days to go????!!!!! Talia, please let us know as soon as you have news to share PLEASE.XX Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LostnEmpty Posted June 27, 2009 Author Report Share Posted June 27, 2009 3 days to go????!!!!! Talia, please let us know as soon as you have news to share PLEASE.XXBoo, I will definitely post when I do give birth to Tabitha. Right now I am 4cm dilated but have no other signs of labor coming soon but I do hope it happens in the next 3 days as i am anxious to hold her in my arms for the first time. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mlg Posted June 27, 2009 Report Share Posted June 27, 2009 It's funny because I was just talking about you tonight and said I wondered if you had the baby yet. Not to discourage you but I was dilated to 3 for 3 weeks with my first one and was in and out of labor.I'll be watching for your post and hopefully some pictures.Good luck. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boo Mayhew Posted June 28, 2009 Report Share Posted June 28, 2009 Talia, I'm guessing that perhaps you are giving birth now????? We are all waiting by our laptops waiting to hear your wonderful news. Tabitha will have so many fairy godmothers through this forum Good luck ... let us knowxxBoo,I will definitely post when I do give birth to Tabitha. Right now I am 4cm dilated but have no other signs of labor coming soon but I do hope it happens in the next 3 days as i am anxious to hold her in my arms for the first time. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boo Mayhew Posted June 28, 2009 Report Share Posted June 28, 2009 hahaha LOL Mary Linda, you can tell that I have never had kids, by the way I assumed that Talia would be giving birth today ... I read your post after I posted to Talia! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mlg Posted June 29, 2009 Report Share Posted June 29, 2009 Boo,That's one thing about childbirth, you never know when they are coming. They come when they darn well please.My second one came within 15 hours of when I started dilating. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LostnEmpty Posted June 30, 2009 Author Report Share Posted June 30, 2009 No baby yet. I am still anxiously waiting as today is my due date. I see my ob tomorrow for my routine weekly appointments and i wonder if he will want to induce on a specific date if I don't give birth soon. But I will find out tomorrow. Thank you for your concern and your posts. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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