Chrissie Posted September 20, 2010 Report Share Posted September 20, 2010 I've really had a rough day today. Had one of those "did I do enough or the right thing", "did he know how much I love him", "why wasn't I there when he died" days. I thought that after 7 months some of those thoughts would ease up. Tim wanted to die at home, but due to some complications he had to go to a hospice care center. They were wonderful to Tim & I, he couldn't of have any better care anywhere! I truly thought he would go for a few days and come home but that didn't happen. When I have days like this I have visions of him in there not knowing why and just thinking I gave up on him. He was always worried he was a burden to me. I told him not to be silly, that I love him and would do anything for him. Since he couldn't talk to me before he died, I will never know how he felt, but I could just see the sadness in his eyes. This just tears me up and I feel so sick inside. I miss him so very much and would give anything to have him back to care for!! I've never told anyone about this feeling and I just had to get it out. Thank you for being here for me and letting me get this out. Chris Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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