Dimcl Posted November 19, 2010 Report Share Posted November 19, 2010 It still seems so unreal. How can my darling man just be gone? Everywhere I go, everywhere I look, our 33 years together are all around me, so how can he just vanish into thin air? How can he be alive and talking about coming home from hospital, kissing me goodbye for the night and then just be gone 6 hours later? How can my life alter so drastically in just 6 hours? I'm trying to be brave for him, I'm trying to carry on because that's what Glenn would have wanted, but it's less than 3 weeks and I just can't imagine how I'm going to get through the weeks and months and years without him. I have his photos all over the house and they give me comfort, but I can't believe that he's just gone. In all our life together, we've never been seperated this long and I just can't get over thinking he'll be there to unlock the door for me when I come home, that he'll take the grocery bags out of my arms after shopping, that he'll be in the kitchen making my morning tea when I get up in the morning. I wish I believed in God, believed in an afterlife, believed that his spirit is hovering, but I don't. I miss his touch, I miss hugging him, I miss his voice, I miss his physicality. I feel like such a weakling, but this pain is too much. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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