beakerj Posted November 28, 2010 Report Share Posted November 28, 2010 Hi, my name is Becka. After nearly 2 years of fighting lung cancer my Mum went into a Hospice 5 weeks ago, & died 2 weeks ago today. I've never had a close bereavement before & was very close to my Mum. A few days before she went into the Hospice I suddenly stopped sleeping & then eating, out of nowhere, & have only made it through the last weeks with medication & drinking milk/milkshake/build up drinks etc. Basically I've had a breakdown & am not functioning, i.e. not working/driving/being on my own. My dogs are staying with friends. I've been diagnosed with depression & my Doctor has just changed my medication, so I'm in transition time. The other aspect to this is that I've been having a lot of frightening thoughts about God (normally I'm a practisisng Christian), I feel everything's been shaken up & mixed up & I can't make sense of anything normal, everything looks terrifying. Everything difficult & hard in the world makes me flinch & cringe. I have had problems with anxiety for most of my adult life, but wasn't expecting my reaction to be this severe, & certainly not the weird thoughts. The counsellor at the Hospice said this was all normal stuff for bereavement, but I'm not convinced. I just feel like the world's weakest person (my siblings are sad , but functional)& like this will never end. Anyone have any wisdom or experience of this? Thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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