Amy Wamy Posted November 30, 2013 Report Share Posted November 30, 2013 It's been a long while since I last posted in this forum, but I just want to write this because sometimes we wonder if anyone else feels this way. It's been a week since the fifth anniversary of my Mums passing. Since then, I don't think I've changed as a person very much, but I have found that I'm trying to forget about it. Putting it to the back of my mind and hoping it doesn't appear in a conversation. Is that wrong? I also haven't visited the cemetery since May, but it's not because I find it hard to go there, I suppose I feel that it's not important to. Is that wrong? I've read on here that many people have cried buckets over their losses, but I can say I haven't even filled up half of one over mine. If you're reading this and wondering whether or not I had a good relationship with my Mum, the answer is I did! I had an enjoyable childhood as I was and am an only child. The memories are vague, but they are there. I now live with my Nan (my Mums mother), and I'm a thankful for her. My Father hasn't spoken to me since I was about 10 (I'm 20 now!). He lives down the road from me with his wife, and it does hurt that he doesn't want anything to do with me (the reason for that is unknown), but I do think there will be a happy ending and we will have a relationship again; it probably won't ever happen. Does subconsciously wanting to forget about my Mums passing it mean something? Is there a reason it am doing it? It's odd because in my head I feel as if I've dealt with it, and that it's just time to get on with life. Other times I feel opposite because I don't talk about it and I always feel uncomfortable that it might come up in conversation. That is all for now. I appreciate you talking the time to read this. It's such a great forum/website, and I'm glad Marty has kept it going! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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