Queeniemary Posted January 13, 2015 Report Share Posted January 13, 2015 Today marks the fifth anniversary of my Mike's death. I miss him no less today that I did five years ago when I made the phone call that resulted in my knowing he was gone. I have learned to cope, and life has moved on. Some think that I am not moving on enough, but it is enough for me. I lay in my hospital bed in Physicians Specialty hospital in Fayetteville early in the morning of January 13, 2010, trying to reach Mike by phone to tell him that I would be released the next day. I tried periodically all day to reach him, on his cell and on the home phone. Finally, afraid he had fallen, or that he just forgot to take his phone into the bedroom (he worked nights, and slept days), I called my daughter who would be picking her daughters up from school shortly, and ask her to run by and make sure he was all right, and that he was up getting ready for work. I waited until I knew she had time to get there, then I called his cell phone....expecting him to answer and tell me why he had not been answering all day. Instead my daughter answered his phone.......and my life changed in that instant. I knew immediately that something was wrong, and my daughter had to tell me on the phone that she had found Mike's body in the dining room floor, surrounded by his dogs. Mike had not been sick, he did take medication, mostly pain meds, for a severe back problem, but was checked out very well every few months, and there was no indication of any heart problems. My cousin, the deputy coroner talked to me on the phone that day, from my house, and told me it was no question that Mike had suffered a massive coronary. He said it most likely happened in an instant. I put pictures of Mike on FB today, probably seems morbid to some, but I don't want anyone to forget him. He was such a presence, a large man, with a big voice, and such talent in the theater. This anniversary of his death is a milestone for me. I feel things are changing, that I am changing. It just seems impossible that he has been gone 5 years... 260 weeks, 1,825 days. Sometimes it seems so long ago that he left, and sometimes, days like today, it seems like only yesterday. Do not know what my future holds, but he will always be there in my heart. Looking through the pictures on my computer, trying to decide which ones to post on FB brought back so many memories....all good. That is what I want to be doing going forward.......remembering all the good, and fun and special times with him. I was blessed to have him in my life, and I will never forget him. Tevye to my Golda, always and forever. QMary Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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